Okay, So this is my first blog, but I want to be as open the to you guys as possible.
I started sparkpeople back in June and to my surprise I am still here! I thought this wanting to get healthy thing was just another one of my crazy phases and I knew I was going to start, but I was totally unsure if I was going to stick to it. I stuck to the plan, get healthy! I did what I said I would. Watch my eating, exercise, drink water, and all the good glories of calorie counting.
The first couple weeks were so brutal. I thought, who in the world has the time to count calories, wake up during the summer early in the morning to work out, and drink so much water?! I knew I was going to quit within the next week or so. Exercising was the worst for me, getting up early in the morning and running. What a joke, I thought to myself, wanting to actually loose weight!
A few weeks in and I started to lose weight. The weight started to come off I started to feel better about everything and began to sense hope. Then the dreadful plateau hit me. I thought well, this is the end of the journey. I had been reading all the articles, following all the advice, touching base with my sparkteam, I did it all.. the weight started creeping up. I figured something unique though. A woman was blogging about the reports section in the website and she had said how it really helped her see why she wasn't losing weight even though she wasn't going over her daily calorie. I noticed I was staying under the limit, but I was not sticking with the recommended daily diet. I had too much in fat and carbohydrates and not enough protein; so I decided I will change things. I am going to try and stick to that plan.
You might all begin to think, oh man, this girl has it all under control.. Well, no.. it's not under control. I have become obsessive over my weight, my eating, and exercise. To the point where I worry if I don't get my workouts in through out the week. This week I was struck with the stomach flu and was unable to exercise for 3 days. It made me absolutely nuts!
I have become a mad woman with this whole weight loss thing. I remember when it used to be fun to call my friend and workout. Now its just a pain and a huge stress thing. How in the world did I go from having fun working out, to stressing if I eat half of a cookie? I still haven't lost much weight.. well I don't exactly know because I don't have access to a scale. (I guess it's a good thing so I don't become a psychopath over weight loss).
So here I am, months after choosing to be healthier, blogging about my obsession with losing weight. Sounds crazy doesn't it?