Trying to get past this

Friday, August 31, 2012

Okay, So this is my first blog, but I want to be as open the to you guys as possible.

I started sparkpeople back in June and to my surprise I am still here! I thought this wanting to get healthy thing was just another one of my crazy phases and I knew I was going to start, but I was totally unsure if I was going to stick to it. I stuck to the plan, get healthy! I did what I said I would. Watch my eating, exercise, drink water, and all the good glories of calorie counting.

The first couple weeks were so brutal. I thought, who in the world has the time to count calories, wake up during the summer early in the morning to work out, and drink so much water?! I knew I was going to quit within the next week or so. Exercising was the worst for me, getting up early in the morning and running. What a joke, I thought to myself, wanting to actually loose weight!

A few weeks in and I started to lose weight. The weight started to come off I started to feel better about everything and began to sense hope. Then the dreadful plateau hit me. I thought well, this is the end of the journey. I had been reading all the articles, following all the advice, touching base with my sparkteam, I did it all.. the weight started creeping up. I figured something unique though. A woman was blogging about the reports section in the website and she had said how it really helped her see why she wasn't losing weight even though she wasn't going over her daily calorie. I noticed I was staying under the limit, but I was not sticking with the recommended daily diet. I had too much in fat and carbohydrates and not enough protein; so I decided I will change things. I am going to try and stick to that plan.

You might all begin to think, oh man, this girl has it all under control.. Well, no.. it's not under control. I have become obsessive over my weight, my eating, and exercise. To the point where I worry if I don't get my workouts in through out the week. This week I was struck with the stomach flu and was unable to exercise for 3 days. It made me absolutely nuts!

I have become a mad woman with this whole weight loss thing. I remember when it used to be fun to call my friend and workout. Now its just a pain and a huge stress thing. How in the world did I go from having fun working out, to stressing if I eat half of a cookie? I still haven't lost much weight.. well I don't exactly know because I don't have access to a scale. (I guess it's a good thing so I don't become a psychopath over weight loss).

So here I am, months after choosing to be healthier, blogging about my obsession with losing weight. Sounds crazy doesn't it?

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    thanks guys for all your support. I do track my food. DJ4HEALTH. I do it on my phone if I am not able to get to my computer. I do use the nutrition report and it helps me see where all my food is going. Some days (like today) I go over my calorie limit a bit, but I am doing well with the nutrition tracker. That part scares me.. seeing every time i input calories how I see the number creeping up more and more. I wish I never had to see that part!

    BRENJET Thank you so much for your comment. It feels good to know Im not just some crazy chick. I know weight loss should be a fun thing and I have totally made it a hassle. I am hoping to let this become a natural thing (being healthy that is) Hopefully this works

    MYLAUREN2 thank you so much for your encouragement and motivation. I appreciate it so so so so very much! I love you guys very much. emoticon
    2023 days ago
    Do you track your food? you should so that you know how much calories you are getting, you could be under which is not good because your body will go into starvation mode and that will cause your body to hang on to all the food that you are taking in, or you could be getting too much and then it is stored at fat. So that is a good reason to track your food.
    2024 days ago
    Sabrina, You don't sound my world you are completely normal!! I feel like I am an ALL or NOTHING kind of girl. I wouldn't call it obsessed, I'd call it committed to doing the right thing. When you make a commitment, you work to keep it, and that's what you are doing. Surround yourself with people who just live a healthy life style. That saying, "Everything in moderation" a goal for me. I, like you, need to commit to a healthy lifestyle and cut myself a break, when the day doesn't go according to plan. We can do this, girl.
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