Day 27 - Looking Up
Friday, August 31, 2012
Ok first off, thank YOU for being so supportive when I've been so down these last few days. Yes, YOU. Mostly the YOUs who commented so helpfully on my blog entries, telling me things weren't completely ruined but also being realistic and not ignoring that I had had a couple bad days. Your comments helped immensely to get my head screwed on straight. But even if YOU didn't comment, thank YOU anyway just for being a member of SparkPeople, because it is the community aspect of this website that really acts like the glue for me. The nutrition factor, the fitness tracker, all the articles and expert blogs...that stuff is great and really helpful. But the thing that keeps me pushing and looking for motivation is hearing inspiring stories from other members, reading other members' blogs, posting or reading posts on the message boards or in teams or challenges. And this may sound silly, but YOU are helpful even when you're not the perfect inspiring story. I mean that with no offense. I mean like, maybe you didn't lose 300 pounds in six months to be the perfect mom to your newborn son. That's great and all, but it can be even more inspiring to hear the real stories out there, the everyday stories. The stories where SP members lose weight slowly (very slowly sometimes) but surely, and then they f*** up one day and don't do a minute of exercise and eat seven bacon cheeseburgers or something. But because they have SparkPeople, they come back to the site, and everyone around them offers what support they can, even total strangers, even internet strangers, and they just get right back on the wagon. So while I'm not happy that you fell off the wagon to begin with, I'm inspired by your ability to jump right back up and keep trying.
So I come to you today, after feeling sorry for myself for a good 48 hours, with a renewed sense of dedication. Do I still feel seriously awful? Yeah. I do. But I can tell it's a circumstantial depression and not a depressive episode, and the cures for that kind of depression include eating right, exercising, getting enough sleep (but not too much - watch out, it's a three day weekend!), and setting and/or achieving small goals, like staying in my calorie range one day at a time, or making flash cards for class. Also critical is that I keep coming back to SP when I feel incapable of those little things. Why?
Because YOU are completely inspirational and utterly motivational, and I couldn't do this without YOU.