Where Have I Been?
Friday, August 31, 2012
For the last 6 months I have been fighting the biggest battle of my life. I was diagnosed with a Major Depressive Disorder. I made the choice to seek help after coming as close to suicidal as I have ever come. I'm positive that my two year old saved my life. I lost a parent at a young age and I still cared enough not to give him the same burden.
I did not, and still have not told my husband about my issues. Maybe I will someday, but my goal has to become stable and having this looming elephant in the middle of my marriage didn't seem like it would help matters any. I started seeing a therapist in June. She put me on a fairly new medication called Viibryd. I have been on it for three months now and I have felt amazing. In fact, things seem more okay than they have felt my whole adult live.
Although this medication claims to be weight neutral, I have gained 20 pounds since I started taking it. It could be that I am feeling better, have more of an appetite...who knows...but I need to try and deal with this issue not that the other is being resolved. My shrink added 150 mg of Wellbutrin, hoping it will help with the weight. I have been on it for three days. My appetite is dead. I have to struggle to eat...another battle for healthy weight loss....
So im back, hoping the tracking will help. We shall see