Releasing all that is Holding me Back!
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Heading into Fall 2012:
I keep adding 'Updates' because I don't want to erase any of this LONG journey I have been on here at SparkPeople! I have been here since Jan 2008. The first year or 14 months - I dropped (fairly consistently and easily) nearly 75 pounds. I hit a brick wall in April of '09 and was literally trying everything I could to break through the plateau for 3 solid years. After 3 years... in Spring of this year - I felt my resolve start to waiver. I began to be discouraged... I stopped measuring EVERY thing... I stopped tracking every snack... eventually over summer - I would skip a workout once or twice a week. we all can guess how that worked out for me?! I have regained almost 20 pounds. This is NOT ok with me and I am determined once again to get control over my choices. My original goal weight may not happen... those single digit pant sizes may not happen... but I am focused and firm in my resolve to lose the 20 that I (re)gained... and evaluate where to go from there! I know I have dropped the ball in some areas (measuring every meal... tracking every snack... working out and not skipping Strength Training - so once again - those are my focus and short term goals!
I have decided that this is my year to release all that is holding me back and spring FORWARD into all that is ahead of me! Preparing to LIVE the adventure - instead of merely just living!
Part of my success in the first year of being here at Spark - was the Community... and that is definitely something I shyed away from after being stuck for some long... I wanted so much to be a positive voice - but found myself getting frustrated and could find no answers. I was tired of feeling like I was sounding like a broken record. My intention was not to be withdrawn for so long! I thought I could find answers on my own... and then jump back in to help out and share my success. But we all know this journey is not always easy and comes packed with all the answers. So - I am back... life is hectic and I can't devote hours and hours - but I am worth it - and to breakthrough I am realizing that (obviously!) I can not do this on my own!
So once again - here I am... to give support and encouragement and to reach out and ask for it as well... we CAN and WILL do this!