Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Not wanting to mince words, I'll just come out and say it. I have breast cancer. I'm still trying to make sense of that. Cancer is something I've always feared... doesn't it strike fear into the heart of so many of us? Cancer of the breast is something I have never even expected. After all, there is no history of it in my family. I nursed all three of my children for a very long time, always believing that it was offering me some kind of protection in addition to nourishing my babies. It's been a bit of a shock, to say the least. I'm still feeling like I'm on a roller coaster of emotions as I come to terms with the diagnosis and find out as much as I can. This is just the beginning of the roller coaster, though, and roller coasters often start out slow, pick up speed, then throw you through a few loops before it slows down again.
The good thing, if there can be anything good about cancer, is that this is a rare type of cancer which is easily treatable and generally has a good prognosis. I will have to have a mastectomy in 8 days. I know there will be a lot of ups and downs while I'm dealing with that, but in the grand scheme of things, I'd rather lose a breast than my life. Thank God I have a supportive husband.
My weight is still an issue, but it has taken a back burner for now. If this diagnosis has done anything, it has distilled my focus considerably, and clarified my indecisive ways quite a bit. I know what I have to do, and I'm intent on doing it. I want to be a survivor.