Monday, August 27, 2012
This weekend was bittersweet as we dropped off our DS for his freshman year at college which is about 4.5 hours away from home. We left before sunrise (DH's idea) to get there in time for the start of move in day 1st thing on Friday morning. We woke up his new soon to be roommate who was gracious & even helpful (look like a good match). It's hard to imagine how we were able to fit everything from his larger bedroom at home into a tiny dorm room he'll be sharing for the next school year, but we did it.
It was a stressful day for many reasons, least from serious lack of sleep the night before (nerves). DH & I are having serious growing pains as we enter a new phase in our lives with our eldest away. I have been crying & depressed on/off for over a year for many reasons (maybe it's the mid-life thing). I also knew that this day would come when I'd need to give my DS wings to take off. He's been such a source of joy from the day he was born that it's hard to imagine he won't physically be around every day to greet me with his dazzling smile, stunning eyes & warm heart.
Thankfully, technology has brought us closer. Tonight, we video chatted which was great. I'm proud of him for choosing to stay in before his 1st day of classes so that he could get himself ready & rest up, rather than join the group partying. He's slowly settling in as he started his 1st day of classes, learning the lay of his huge campus & adjusting to living without us nagging him (lol). It will take me a little time to adjust to not tripping over his big shoes at the door or calling his name for dinner. I'll miss not having another driver to run errands or pick up DD. I pray he will make time to come home from time to time since he's not all that far. I know that he'll come back stronger, wiser & more confident as he becomes more independent.
This last year has been about taking care of DS preparing for college, DD achieve a milestone with her Bat Mitzvah as well as helping my little bro overcome some personal challenges. In the process, I've completely neglected me & DH. Tomorrow, I will begin to finally take care of me! DH will just have to wait for the time being (more on that later)...
Cheers Spark Friends!