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A Life without fear of Failure

Monday, August 27, 2012

I have been doing some thinking lately and I wish that I had a place where I can go to be alone without my family bothering me all the time, A place where I can think and be free to be myself. I don't want to fear anything ever again and I don't want to be called a failure because I have failed at everything I have ever tried to do before and I know how it feels to be alone and unwanted by the ones you love.

I was talking to Lila the other day and I felt at ease when I was talking to her because she made me see that my life is worth fighting for and that if I want my goal to succeed that I cant let anyone put me done and that means my family because I need them to behind me on my journey instead of against me. I feel so alone right now that it bothers me to think that I am going to failure again. I hate being alone in a major journey in my life like this and I know that I can't turn to my family for support.

I fear failure and I know that when I fail I will just stop this journey and I don't want to stop so I am going to start this journey with my head held high and think of just myself and not my family. I am going to start tomorrow by eating a good breakfast then doing some laundry then going for a much needed walk so that I can clear my head of all the bad thoughts that I am holding in because it will drive me mad if I dont get away by myself for about an hour or so.
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    You are NOT a failure! We're all human, and this is a process. emoticon You are worth it. Family sometimes helps, family sometimes hurts and holds you back. YOU, all by yourself, just YOU are worth it!
    2028 days ago
    We are here to help as much as we can, but it is you that has to make this journey. Don't let other people's failure bleed over to you. Don't expect others to carry you along, they are stuggling as much as you are. None of us make it without struggles of one type or another, but the ones that eventually succeed, don't accept failure and keep on going. Keep the faith.
    2031 days ago
    talk to you in a minute...
    2031 days ago
    Sounds like you have some really good ways of coping with this. Sometimes when I feel alone, I look at the success stories and realize its just for now, tthe next moment is a beginning in itself.
    2031 days ago
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