Changes. Not good with them. I am making some major changes in my life in this next year. I am learning to manage my finances better, and that meant giving up my beloved bikram. I am planning on leaving Arizona to move to Massachusetts to be close to my daughter, and while that is a good thing, I find myself very upset over what I am leaving behind, which is my church family. There is no place like this church, and I have grown so much in my faith there. But, I feel this strong pul to be close to my daughter, she is my only living immediate family, and we need each other. I go thru horrible depression at the holidays without bing close to her. So last Saturday, a good friend came over and we started going thru my things, I want to pare down and get rid of what I don't need. We went thru my books and cd's and movies and book shelves. I threw away some memories, and that hurt, I am selling 2 tall bookcases that were mom and dad's. I want something lighter and not so dark. My financial counselor thinks I should give up some things that I disagree on, and that is depressing me. I don't know, but I have been in a major funk since Friday, and have not worked out since Thursday. I feel like a big part of my life is coming to a close, my parent's, my marriages, alot. I feel old. I jo9ined AARP and that was a pull, 'cause I am in denial over my age. I'm 52, and might as well admit it.
Sorry this is a downer, and I know there are people way worse off than me, but this is how I feel. Trying to commit to a workout tonite after my babysitting is done. Just pray for me, k?