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Ever felt like just saying Heck with it?

Monday, August 27, 2012

These past few months are really eating me alive, I have had sooo many darn medical issues to dewal with from bursitis in my hip, to having to have teeth pulled and then now having to go back for an abcess in the gum from the removal. And I have had two seperate allergic reactions to medications. I am seriopusly trying not to fall and while I am staying within my range 3 lbs up and down.. I still cannot stop the rollercoaster and get the heck off.. I miss running with Jen, she is the only one who EVER inspired me to not stop or quit. Even my biggest inspirators have moved on and not another word hardley..But, Jen still checks on me and when I post positive thoughts, cheers me on..Thanks Jen, You are probably the only reason I haven't totally given up..Watching your post and your success wakes me a little more each time..I know I cannot Quit, and I will get through this..I just hope it is sooner than later cause this fat girl feeling has to go..I want my identity back and to live life running full force...I know I am complaining, I truley am sorry about that..Just needed to vent..Thanks for listening.....
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KEVINDHARE 9/11/2012 12:24PM

    Dont give up...YOU ARE WORTH IT!! I know there are dark times, but after that is over, you are in a much better place and SO MUCH STRONGER!! Keep it up...

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RAWHIDE64 8/27/2012 8:02PM

    Venting is good. It helps get all the bad thoughts out so you can concentrate on the good ones. You're allowed to do that here. It's OK. emoticon We have to weather the bad times so we can enjoy the good times more and you will have good times. I've been riding this roller coaster called life for a long long time and I've felt like saying the heck with it many many times. However, I have adopted the credo "This too shall pass - it always has" and I keep plodding along.

Your words read like a complaint but I hear a determination to never quit in there.

You'll weather this storm and come out of it stronger than you were before. Just get through each day and deal with tomorrow when it gets here.

Lew

PS - You do know that as a West Volusia Sparker you are encouraged to gripe but quitting is out of the question. emoticon

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BARBIECAT 8/27/2012 5:05PM

    We all feel like saying "the heck with it" or "what's the use?" but that's never the answer.....you just pull on your big girl pants and put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing and one day you'll wake up and things will be better

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MEXGAL1 8/27/2012 3:41PM

    what ever you do, don't give up!!! You deserve to have a good healthy life. You only have this one life and eating right and exercising is going to make you feel better in the long run. it took me 60 years to figure this out but for sure it's the one thing i know for sure!
Best of everything to you. You can do this thing. Don't let silly food and lack of movement rule your world.
Rock on!
Sallie

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FLGIRL1234 8/27/2012 3:22PM

    Oh girl. I feel your pain. I have been there many times in the past myself constantly going up and down and feeling like it would be so much easier to give in and give up. Any time I have those feelings I start to think about the ending result. Do I want to feel this way all my life? Will I be happy with myself if I just let it all go and not care? Of course the answer is no. When I think like that it helps push me in the direction I need to go in. Life gets in the way and we have set backs but we CAN push through. You are one determined woman when you set your heart and mind to it. If you want this, you can have it. Just take it one day at a time, one better decision at a time. I am always happy to be here for you, check in on you and help push you through. That's what Spark Buddies are for right? I am right here with you cheering you on like I always am. You can do this girl. I've got your back.

Jen

p.s. Miss running with you too! :)

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THREEE 8/27/2012 2:52PM

    asking for an ear you may find you have one...posting, i am sure, helps too...
let this be a less complicated, more fun week for you emoticon

but still vent if you need to... emoticon

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SOAVEZEFIRETTO 8/27/2012 2:50PM

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