Monday, August 27, 2012
...and I am falling back fast. I've gained back the few pounds that I had lost and am back on the coffee/sugar kick. It's awful. I was doing amazing too! I was juicing every day and then my abdominal pain hit hard again which came with severe migraines and I've always used caffeine to combact my migraines. Yesterday afternoon I spent almost the entire day on the couch feeling sorry for myself and wasn't even prepared for the boys first day of school this morning.
We woke up late, got to school late (in the pouring rain which made the delay even worse), forgot to give the boys money for lunch, no breakfast for any of us, and I was an hour late to work.
Luckily work has been slow which has given me a chance to reflect on this morning and where things started to go wrong. When I feel that pain I don't want to do anything because I am hurting so bad. I start feeling sorry for myself and I start to spiral out of control. Before I know it I am back to square one again and feeling defeated.
Today I choose not to feel defeated. I am choosing to learn from my mistakes and start all over again. So what if I blew it the first time. The important thing is getting back up and trying again.
Today I am going to replace my coffee with green tea. In my mind I am going to tell myself that I feel amazing amazing though I really feel like I am falling apart. Tonight after I pick up the boys from school I am going to go to the gym. I'm sure my workout will be sad but any workout is better than none at all. Today I am going to take care of business-even if its only for today....