Saturday, August 25, 2012
Do you ever feel like you're fighting food, day and night? All day, I've had this insatiable urge to eat, eat, eat. I think it's connected to some anxiety issues I'm going through right now and I will talk to my therapist when I see her next week. At the solid age of 67, I know that no one has a magic answer for me. It is not easy to deal with compulsive overeating. At least I overeat healthy foods like apples, not boxes of cookies like in the old days. I think it really comes from wanting to hurt myself and that often happens when I feel trapped in life. I watched the movie "Catch Me If You Can" tonight and it made me very sad. I know it's based on a real life story with two great actors playing the lead parts. The "con" artist is such a damaged young man. I suspect a lot of people would say, "Oh, grow up!" Nonetheless, I've always felt even when I was quite young that until you walk in someone else's shoes, you can't really condemn that person's behavior. Fate gives us all a journey to travel and that journey constitutes our life. Or so I believe. Life can be very painful at times and thinking pretty thoughts definitely does not help. I know because I've tried it many times. For those of us who were severely damaged as children, life presents some real difficulties along the way. I detest it when people call them "challenges." The latter means something else entirely.