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Depressed

Thursday, August 23, 2012

I am getting very frustrated and depressed with the situation that I am in right now. I haven't worked since 2008, two years I was a stay at home mom. But then we separated and divorced in 2010 and now I am going to school to get a degree in accounting. I have a lot of my plate and with taking care of my mom along with everything else, I am feeling overwhelmed and being taken for granted. My mom feels like she had me to take care of her and that I'm not suppose to have a life of my own. I know this sounds bad but I have gotten to the point that I don't love my mom for the way she treats me. Sure she thanks me for everything I do, but she also thinks its my job to do it. I'm the only child and that makes it harder, because I have no one to help me or give me some time to myself. I have no money coming in, no car of my own and I stay home at the time because of that. Maybe one day I will be able to live my life for me and not for everyone else. Well I'm done for now. Have a great day!!!! emoticon
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-CHERYL 8/24/2012 6:49AM

    I don't particularly like my mother because of her attitude and how she treats people. She lived with us for a few years and it made life a living hell. Any time I had to ask for help with anything, like borrow her car or get a ride (my son was using my car for work) she acted like she then had the right to tell me how to live my life, spend my money, raise my kids, it was really annoying.

She is a very unhappy person and loved to have company in her misery. Being around her so really depressing.

I''m sure if I had to live at her house it would have been a million times worse.

I'm not sure what your situation is but is it possible for you to get at least a part time job, even if its at a 7-11 down the street, something close? It will get you out of the house at least.

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DHEBNER 8/24/2012 1:16AM

    Thanks for your comments to my blog. I just don't know how much more I can handle. But I will continue on and be the good and loving daughter like I'm suppose to be. I'm glad that I have kind people willing to support me when I need it. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ANGELWENDYMAMA 8/23/2012 10:22PM

    Hugs.. I'm dealing with depression, too. I can tell you that moving and doing little bits of exercise - two walks and a 16 in. bit of hula hooping helped my mood for awhile each time.

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FEMISLIM 8/23/2012 6:05PM

    I understand how you feel. I am in a similar situation but my faith in God keeps me going. My saying everyday is "it could be worse" . This is true no matter what you are going through, it could be worse. Make the best of what you have and remain positive.

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23KAIYA 8/23/2012 5:57PM

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I don't know if this will help, if not please just ignore.
I was in your shoes, when my mom had terminal cancer. I didn't see my kids, wasn't working, it was all taking care of her and I felt the same way some days. I'm so grateful I did now though, knowing I was there when no one else was or could be makes it so much easier to live with the loss.
When you are able to work and have a car and a home and a life of your own, live it up! and walk with shoulders back, head held high knowing you went above and beyond.

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ARYNSMAMA 8/23/2012 5:34PM

    I know things right now seem really hard to handle but remember this can only make you stronger. Don't let it bring you down. Try to take at least 5 or 10 minutes for yourself. Take a bubble bath, meditate, read. You need to re-energize yourself or you won't be helping yourself or others.
Hang in there and be strong! emoticon

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