I'm struggling with this battle. I thought I was prepared to look the beast in the eyes and work on it. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but it's been even harder than I had anticipated. It's hard to write down everything you eat on a consistent basis. It's hard to look at the end of the day and see "Oh I 've done well today".....only to blow it minutes/ hour later. Writing it down seems so overwhelming. I'm not sure I am emotionally ready for this. But if not now when?
My anxiety and depression have been rearing their ugly heads and that's making things difficult too. I saw my Dr. today and he upped my mood stablizor so hopefully that will help. I have got to figure out where to go from here and also where do I go when things get hard.
Where do I go? I turn to the Lord and yet at the same time I go to the food. I so miss having the internet @ home. SP has always been my tool and it's made it hard not having access to it 24/7. But I do have the Lord 24/7 and I must put my hope and trust in him.
One friend mentioned journaling and I think I am going to try that approach as well. If any one has tips I am open.
On a positive note yesterday I did get a short walk in despite my pain levels being really high.
I'm so thankful for my friends! I really do love u!