I have to take 3 vitamin D pills a day because it's really low.
I actually demanded a blood test to see how it was-even if I already knew the answer-because winter is a very bad depression time for me(SAD).
But the last month or so,I wasn't really taking my 3 a day.
I took one every morning with my iron pill,but the rest of the day I often forgot,or didn't have one with me, or...whatever.
Plus,it's summer so we get it from the sun right?
I also take fish oil for the same reason,but ,I've really neglected that also.
Then last week, I started binging and could not stop.
It was really discouraging. I though it was because I was really tired because I had a lot going on.
Then I though it was brought on by anxiety,also because I had a lot going on.
But this week-end was pretty quiet and I got a lot accomplished and my binging only got worse,and my mood got pretty low.
I thought it was because our secretary quit (she got another job), and that stressed me out a little.
Monday night saw me sitting on the couch eating into the wee hours of the night in front of the tv.
But, on Tuesday I did not go to Zumba because I did not care if I ever went or not again.
I actually could not remember why I actually liked zumba in the first place.
I just stayed home,sat on the couch and ate,and watched tv.
Then it hit me.
Not caring about something I really,really love is one of the signs of depression for me.
I took 2 Vitamin D pills before going to bed plus one evening primrose oil.
In the morning I took another 2 vit. D and one flax seed oil.
At noon I took a fish oil supplement plus a vit D.
And by the afternoon, it's like a light switch is turned on in my head.
Depression is gone and I can think clearly. I even care about what goes on.
I'm feeling much better and my binging is done.
My cravings to eat everything in site is just not there any more.
I even went to zumba-even if it was hard because I had heartburn from all my binging.
Is this all in my head?
Or is there really something physically wrong with me?
No binging today. I don't even feel a little craving.
Could some of my binging be caused by missing vitamins?
Is it my body's way of looking for something it is missing?
Not all the time. Sometimes I over eat just because it's good, or out of habit.
But I mean a real binge. Like making a box of craft dinner at 9am and eating it all,even if I had a really big breakfast. Then eating a container of yogurt and 2 ice cream bars, and making mashed potatoes with canned salted fish for dinner and eating 2 heaping bowls with lots of butter even if I know I'm going to die of heartburn later and will feel blah!
And even with all that food and feeling blah I still look for food because my body/mind can't seam to ever get full/satisfied!
And I know my fatty liver is suffering for it,but I just don't care.
And I know i'm going to gain weight,(like 4 lbs in a few days) but I just don't care.
This is why I love this site.
I can blog about it and share it and I don't feel so alone.
I love you all!
Have a nice day!