I am out of control!

I did fairly well while I was in Minnesota for my uncle's funeral. I hate lots of veggies, tried hard to get exercise when I could, and tracked most of my food...

...until the day of the funeral. I gave myself permission not to track my food on Saturday. And then, on Sunday, I was in transport mode. I had a large breakfast, no lunch on the plane, and then dinner. It wasn't healthy, but it wasn't excessive either.

But, Monday----school started. I ate a cookie in the teacher work room. A COOKIE. A cookie is not a sin. But I didn't track it.

Tuesday----I didn't cheat, but nor did I walk.

Today (Wednesday). All I can say is OMG! We had a mini-conference in another town 90 miles away. I was up early, and had a healthy breakfast. But when we arrived on the site, I had two cookies. Then they had lunch for us, later. Chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, rolls, peach cobbler. AND I ATE ALL OF IT.

ALL OF IT.

I could have a bulimic moment right now and throw up.

And the worst part is----I'M INSPIRED TO BE SUCCESSFUL TODAY! I have two friends who had weight loss surgery recently. And I'm determined to show them that they can lose weight without all of that----and I was down this morning to 15 pounds down. And still I ATE ALL OF THAT!

I'm really disgusted with myself.

Really, really disgusted with myself.