Wednesday, August 22, 2012

So after a restful week with family in NY, I am back to the daily grind for a few days before I go see my immediate family in California for 10 days. I am feeling a little frustrated....I feel like I'm not losing weight fast enough. I feel like no one around me is noticing besides me....I am a super-impatient person in the first place, so I especially suck at biding my time with something as emotional as weight loss.

That being said, I do feel like I am having a much easier time getting through my workouts, and I was extremely careful about my diet the whole time I was on vacation. I didn't log in as often as I should have, and I drank some beers, but in general I made time for exercise as frequently as possible, sometimes walking/jogging twice a day.

The guy that I was supposed to go on a date with tomorrow pulled a disappearing act and suddenly went from talking to me all the time and seeming really interested in me to not talking to me at all. I think a few months ago this would have really upset me and layed me low, but these days I just feel sorry for someone like that. To be 27 years old and not able to tell a girl you don't want to talk anymore....sad stuff. I hope he treats future love interests better, and that he ultimately finds happiness....but I will be too busy having an awesome, loving relationship to notice!!! :)

On the subject of boys, I have religiously avoided the male roomate I was/am/could be crazy about. I haven't seen him in almost seven days now. As soon as I got home from vacation, I started making sure to be fast asleep when he got home from work. I think if I just keep avoiding him and focus on work/family, I will forget about him eventually. I miss talking to him, but I need to do what's best for my emotional health right now....and he's not a part of that!

Speaking of focusing on work...have sucked at that lately. I just haven't felt motivated to deal with it and have found myself surfing mindlessly through funny cat pictures on the internet for hours at a time....my boss is such a sweet and lenient lady that I think that I accidentally take advantage of the independent-style working methods here sometimes. I guess that means I should stop typing this blog and start dealing with the huge load of paperwork and billing that needs to be done before I leave for vacation on Friday morning. Not to mention that final English paper that's due....which I haven't even read the text for....whoops! hahaha

All I can do is avoid the scale until I am feeling less impatient, stick with my workouts and my tracking, and look forward to some fun in the sun for my Las Vegas/California birthday adventure. Thank you all SO MUCH for the warm support that I know will get me through this ancy faze until the number drops again!

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  • GAL7288
    I am so glad you had fun in NY and I am sure California will be a blast too! Sometimes we worry so much about what we have consumed and what the scale will read and at the end we just make a storm in a glass of water, and when we step on the scale to our surprise we have actually lost weight, it has happened to me before.

    I am glad you don't take resentment in what that jerk did, unfortunately some guys don't mature fast enough and don't know how to handle a real relationship, count it as a blessing that he is not around anymore, I am a strong believer that things happen for a reason. As to your roommate, it is good that you are taking action in avoiding him until you get your feeling together, like i mentioned before if a relationship is toxic and you know deep inside that it only hurts you, then step away from it.

    I think you are doing amazing in all aspects of this journey, not everything is about weightloss, we all carry emotional baggage that takes us in this route in the first place, and you are learning to deal with it and also you are making good decisions towards making you better. I know at the end you will be victorious and accomplish everything you need to accomplish, and I will be here cheering you on!

    Have a great day!
    1822 days ago
    I'm gonna crack the whip...priority get the work done job and school make them number one on your list of to do
    1822 days ago
    Just keep your eyes on the prize and try not to get discouraged! I always found if I didn't see immediate results, I'd just give up before. Keep going on the path you're on and you'll find success!
    1822 days ago
    Yup...stay focused on your workouts and tracking. I made a pact with myself to not weigh until the end of September. I drove myself crazy because of the scale not moving or moving in the wrong direction...if you can, go a week or so w/o weighing to stop driving yourself crazy lol emoticon

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    1822 days ago
    Stay focused on your weight management goals. In no time at all you will start seeing positive results. You are worth the effort! emoticon emoticon
    1823 days ago
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