Wednesday, August 22, 2012
So I'm starting on what I call 'not day 1' on my 'not a diet'. I've been dieting, losing and gain weight since I was 12 years old. Each time learning something new about food, exercise, my body and my relationship with it all. I've tried 12 step programs, weight loss coaches, nutritionists, read millions of books and magazines. I get it... I know what good nutrition is, I know what good portions are, I know how important it is to exercise, although I've never put as much emphasis on exercise as I have on changing food. I've lost as much as 100 - 130 lbs more than once, all with adjusting my food. I've given up sugar and flour many times and that has always led to the large amounts of weight loss... but also to breaks where I end up binging on all the things i missed. I believe there are many factors in my weight struggle the need to binge on the 'not good food' and my obsession with my weight.
So here's where I'm at today... I want to be healthy, I want to change my behavior and my lifestyle forever BUT I can't force it all in one day and expect it to be the end all be all. I've learned things about habits and behaviors and how our brains change as we react to certain conditions and develop habits. These are reinforced everytime we act that way. For example, my draw to food in stressful times and not just any food, the foods filled with sugar and fat or my draw to binge one last time before I give it all up tomorrow. These automatic reactions need to be lessened and new habits reinforced. It will take practice, focus and work, but I believe it can be done. And be done with patience and compassion for myself.
So, for not day 1 and everyday after I will make small changes and build on them. What's the first change I need to make? Being active. I have never been one of those people where being active is as much a habit as eating. So, small change - do something active everyday even if only for 10 minutes. Learn how to fit it into my day and make it a priority.
More small changes to come!