Wednesday, August 22, 2012
I have been crying all morning. It took me almost 1.5 hours to get dressed this morning. Nothing looks good on me. My fat stomach pulls at my shirts, my bras are tight, I had to fight to button my jeans. I cant do this any more. I was late for work. I dont know what to do. I work at work then go home and cook, clean, laundry and try to get in at least 30 mins on the elliptical. I cant do this, I am tired. Now at work I have sit on my fat rear all day. I refuse to buy bigger clothes, I'm not going to do it. If I have to wear the same thing everyday, I will. I am just so depressed. I have no one to talk to this about - of course my girlfriends are thin, my husband is thin, my son is thin. I'm just so sick of it all I wonder if I am ever going to win this battle. Please....when is it going to end !