Wednesday, August 22, 2012
I have lost 40 pounds (lost 50) but have gained 10 back. I can blame the grandkids visiting, I can blame it on no time. Or I hate to admit it but I can blame myself for not taking the time, the kids didn't get up till 9 or 10 - due to them being teenagers and such - I was lacking in motivation and desire - I have plateaued and I don't like it. So instead of muddling through and finding new motivation - upping the exercise and strength training - I stopped everything - I slid back into old ways of comfort - heaven knows the grandkids have to have Grammy's yummy choco chip cookies, pancakes - but wait I put blueberries in them - but butter and syrup too!
So I have to stop the lying to myself - I sabotaged my own journey! The grandkids have gone back home, I have to face the fact that I have to finish this journey - as much as we say we want support and need it - the whole truth is: it is an individual journey that one must make by oneself. No one can force you to eat anything, no one can force you to pick up those weights, or walk (jog) that mile. It is and always will be a journey of self-discovery - can you, will you, finish strong and healthy? That is my desire - not for curves and sexy - but healthy, fit, trim and able to handle what comes my way - curves and sexy might just be the by product of getting oneself fit and trim.
So here is to the last 30 pounds - I have set my new goal - my target weight by Jan 1 2013.
Support from friends and family help but again it is a self-journey that only I can fulfill.