I weighed in at just a few ounces over last week's weight and the Big Number is still 153. That's 3 pounds from my WW goal and only 1 (almost 2) pounds from not having to pay to go to meetings. I like those meetings and expect I'll continue to go fairly regularly even though the rule is only once a month. I like the WW employees and I like the people who attend. But I would rather have the $.
When I look in the mirror, though, I see that I would rather weigh 140 lbs than 150. It's a proportion thing and it's an age thing. The only thing that would keep me heavier would be if my face sagged too much at the lower weight (also an age thing). But way back in 2003 when I first picked this WW goal I thought I'd look and feel better in the 140's. I just didn't want to work towards it any more. Now, almost a decade later and half an inch shorter, I need to see if this is right for me.
So. So what's going on? I'm playing around with the same few pounds - or eve ounces - again. Time to listen in to my Left Brain School Marm and my Right Brain Wild Child and see what we can do to start moving again.
LB Well, my friend - we're starting to dance away from our weight loss goal again. Want to talk about it?
LB So, do you want to get slender?
RB Yes but I'm afraid
LB What are you afraid of?
RB I'm afraid I'll have to work this hard for the rest of my life
LB What else?
RB I'm afraid I won't be able to live up to our expectations. And I'm tired
LB What are you tired of?
RB I am tired of having to think all the time. Think about what to eat. Think about exercising. thinkthinkthink
LB How else do you feel?
RB I don't feel free enough
LB What would make you feel more free?
RB LOL - a cook in the kitchen who made all the decisions for me and they were all good ones. And restaurants that figured out how to make good for me food as tasty and cheap as not-so-good-for-me food.
LB Well. I'd like that too - but what can I do to help you feel more free?
RB Make the lists. Make the plan. Plan out meals. Take time to do your job.
LB Hmmmm. I can do that. I even like doing that. But it means not doing other things. Time is finite when it comes to this sort of thing. You have to be willing to Not Play with Other Things while I do all this list making and planning.
RB When? When?
LB How about Thursday afternoon? But you will have to be quiet
RB OK - I can be quiet while you're working.
LB And we may miss drawing and have to double up on Saturday
LB Anything else?
RB I am getting older and I don't know who I am as an old lady
LB You're the same person you always were
RB No I'm not - I have creaky bones and aching joints sometimes and I have to watch out for my back and I'm scared I'll look bald when my hair turns grey but I'm afraid I'll look stupid with an old lady face and died hair.
LB Nobody's looking at you that hard
RB I am looking at me
LB How can I help
RB Oh. I didn't think anybody could help. Can you make a plan about that too?
LB I'm sure I could
RB When When When
LB Well - hmm. How about Labor Day weekend, when I have a little extra time ? And btw, I'm glad to learn you see the value of all my list making and plan writing ...
RB I've always valued you - I just don't like it when you forget about me
LB Fair enough. Well - Let's work together on this
Well. Who knew? I'll be back when I have my plan to share. Hope you got a chuckle out of all this.