Wednesday, August 22, 2012
not giving up! I have to do this, and get healthy, so I'm going to. No matter what. Even if I gained 20 pounds (dear gods, NO!) I'd still make the effort to lose it and more, because I AM WORTH IT.
I haven't checked the scale for the knowledge that I've probably gained 5+ pounds and would be discouraged, so, I'm holding off on that. I have decided, I think, to start the South Beach diet again, at least for a few weeks until vacation so I can maybe lose a few pounds and decrease my tummy size so my size 16 pants fit comfortably on our trip. They're still really tight and with my gains from the past week or so they probably wouldn't button if I tried them on now. anyway, I'll most likely get back on SB tomorrow as I need to take stock of what's in the house that I can work with. We went grocery shopping to use some WIC vouchers last night and got some veggies so I can definitely use them, and we have eggs... running low on cheese and other foods that are Phase 1 friendly, though. But, for now I can manage. The only reasons I said I'd start tomorrow is 1) I have a lunch already made for today that has rice in it, and 2) today is Chloe's 4th birthday so we have cake, and while I don't NEED to have a piece, I'd like some- and I know if I deny myself I will binge on it later. One positive is that my husband (whom I've decided has an eating disorder- more on that later!) will most likely eat the majority of the cake tonight. That's what tends to happen when we have sweets in the house.
Anyway, I have to go to work for a few hours today and finish up my classroom, then I get to hang out at home until school starts on Monday. I'm going to court tomorrow for the misdemeanor thing mentioned in previous blogs which I'm sort of nervous about but will be relieved to have over and done with. The trooper said it'd take about 30 minutes to write up my charges (filing a false claim) and go over my bail requirements and such. They've basically come up with a solution that, from what the trooper told me, would work for both Joe and I- getting some counseling together to work out our issues, etc. So that's tomorrow. My friend from work also asked if I wanted to hang out tomorrow since we haven't seen much of each other this summer (she was at a different location) so I might meet up with her in the morning with Spencer.
Not much else to report, but Spencer is stinking up the house- diaper time!