Wow -- I've been sort of 'offline' where Spark is concerned, for the past 4-5 months...I had this impulse to write a blog, and realized that this past week was my 2nd year Sparkversary!
So much has happened in the past 2 years...it seems like several lifetimes have rolled by! Much has been good -- wonderful, fun, exciting -- and much has been challenging, but it's my one and only, wild and precious life, and I thank God for it!
When I started with Spark People on August 16, 2010, I did not know that I would learn just a few hours later that my Mom was not expected to live more than a few more days. That evening I began, with my family, and my best friend @MichCleary, to sit a vigil with her until she passed away at 5:20 on the morning of August 19th.
Her passing has led me down a path of really searching my heart for what is most precious to me...to a deeper understanding of the legacy that she left in me...all of the good and precious lessons that she taught me over the first 50 years of my life. I miss her more today than ever before, but the missing of her has changed...deepened in a way that enriches me, rather than distressing me. I cannot explain it, but it is profound.
When Mom passed away, I was about 18 months into my journey toward living a healthy and active life. I had lost about 75 lbs since my lapband surgery in March of 2009, and my goal was to lose another 50.
Two years has passed...and I have lost 10. In many ways I am disappointed in myself. I could have lost that 50 lbs by now. I did lose and regain 10-15 lbs several times over this period. But now I know, in ways I didn't really understand before, that I have triumphed! Since 2009 I have lost more than 85 lbs!!! This is an amazing transformation and must be celebrated!
Ya know what? I have MISSED those Spark emoticons! Just love 'em!
But, back to the story of my journey...I am not finished. I am pushing forward! I made the decision on August 5, 2012 to become a Beach Body Coach. Truth be told, I thought it would help me to be accountable if I was a Coach that represented a heath and fitness company! I owned P90X, but I reasoned that becoming a Coach would help me stay the course. And for the first time, I tried the absolutely amazing Shakeology superfood, protein shake! Wowzer!
After 10 days of having the 'healthiest meal of the day', I feel like a new woman.
So, the moral of my journey is this: life is full of ups and downs, and for many of us, the scale is often full of ups and downs. Press on dear friends! Do not give up the journey...it is not a fight, but the trip of a lifetime. Embrace each step...even the missteps. We all have them. As I write this, I must tell you, from an eating perspective, I had one tonight. I could just as easily be writing a blog about my unhealthy dinner...but really, it was just 1 dinner. After dinner, I 'pushed play' and did 60 minutes of P90X Plyocide...but this blog isn't about Plyocide either...
Everything is a piece of the bigger picture...every moment, every experience, a tiny paintbrush in the hand of God to create the masterpiece that is our wild and precious life.
Live it my friends! And as we say at Beach Body, "Bring it!"