Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Believe it or not, today was a good day.
Of course I still miss my dad, and there is so much extra stuff in my apartment right now because we HAVE to get it out of the storage unit since my step-mom can no longer pay for it. I'm overwhelmed and surrounded by memories, but also just a lot of stuff. I think we'll donate a lot of it.
We're still waiting to find out if my husband got that job. He has one more interview with all the big wigs. Every day we don't hear something I panic a little more. I want him to get this job so badly. Not just for the money, but for his peace of mind. He HATES his current job, absolutely dreads it. And it doesn't help that we almost live paycheck to paycheck. This new job would give us a nice cushion, and a lot less worry.
But here's the good stuff. I was walking from the front of the store to the back room where my desk is today, and my coworker, Gail, says to me "Where did the rest of you go?" I smiled and laughed. She said I looked so thin from behind. I'm far from thin, but I know I've slimmed down quite a bit, a lot of it in my butt, lol. So I turned back around to talk to her and the Master Watchmaker, Tom, and my boss comes to join the conversation and says "Where's the other half of you?" I don't know if it was what I was wearing or what but two compliments back to back about how good I looked. It felt nice. =)
Then I found out I was Done Girl of the Day! My inbox was being bombarded with congrats and encouragement! It was really what I needed after this really rough week. I haven't been exercising this week, but I've kept to my calories and drank plenty of water. I even tasted a bit of my husband's Coke yesterday and thought it was gross! I did enjoy two mini cupcakes and a couple of brownies yesterday, but it was time with family reminiscing about my dad and I don't feel guilty about it. I was only over my daily calories by about two hundred so it's barely a setback.
Tonight my SIL invited us over to help finish the leftovers from the party, but I stuck to a big salad with light dressing and some baked ziti. Then my nephews wanted ice cream so we went to the local Water Ice Factory and I had a small mango water ice. Even so I'm still within my calorie range for the day, and I'm happy with myself.
But the real kicker is this: for the first time since I started losing weight, my step mom said something about it. She said "Andrea, you're really looking good. You can really see a big difference." It felt so nice to hear a compliment from her. We've had a rocky relationship, and I think my dad being gone has actually made us closer. Probably because we both loved him so much and most of our fights were because we were fighting for him. =)
Anyway, I've had THREE verbal compliments from different people, I stayed within my calories all week except last night, and even though I haven't exercised I've generally stayed on track. (I have been moving boxes and things, I just haven't tracked it yet.
So THANK YOU everyone for all the support and for your kind words, and I am DONE being the fat girl!