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They say a picture is worth 1000 words

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

This is my first biog entry. I am what would be considered an extreme introvert. I love reading people's blogs about their victories and frustrations and happy days and tough days. I think it is healthy to get your worries out of your head. It just makes me really uncomfortable to be the "sharer" But it's a new day and I'm jumping in. We had company this past weekend. Lots of old friends we hadn't seen in many years. It was a great time. I felt so happy to connect with my friend and spend time with her family. I was so proud of my kids and how they entertained all the visiting children. It was a success all around. Until last night, when my husband showed me the pictures. I saw one of myself and was just mortified by how I looked. I can't get the image out of head. It's completely freaking me out. I know it's just a picture. I know it's not me, the person. But I can't shake the voice in my head, the 1000 ugly words I'm using inside to describe myself. Why do we allow ourselves to self-talk in a way that we would never speak to someone else or let someone else talk about themselves in such a way? The good of the picture is that is has motivated me to finish what I have started. I'm about 1/2 way though to my weight loss goal and have admittedly been lax in the past few weeks. But I need to also work on the nasty girl in my head. She unfortunately won't just go away because I've dropped a a few more pounds. I feel better for getting this out!
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    CONGRATS and glad that you are feeling better , about youself .You are on your way , jot down 5 positive words that describe you each day and put where you can see it.(some use thatr cell ph or post it on the computeretc.)
    2010 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. Congratulations on your 1st blog. I have yet to even make a spark page because that is how much of an introvert I am.

    Good for you on getting yourself out there. Also on your weight loss & I wish you continued success. Pretty soon that voice in your head will be a thing of the past. I know what you are talking about though. I've lost 62 pounds and am 5 pounds from goal weight & it took me a very long time to see myself as thin again.
    2010 days ago
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