Wouldn't you think that SparkPeople would have made me an expert on letting go of things by now? Especially things that are not good for my body, for my soul or for my mind?
I've let go of quite a lot of unhealthy foods.
I've let go of toxic friends that couldn't handle my new joy and mental balance.
I've let go of trying to control my body and have learned to work WITH my body toward health.
I've let go of laziness, overeating, television (for the most part), sleeping in, convenience meals, fast food.
I've let go of anger, low self-esteem, self-hatred.
But no matter how many things I learn to live without or get rid of, there are always more. That's what's both wonderful and horrible about this thing we call life. Things are always changing and, usually, when we are least prepared for them to change.
That list up there is pretty impressive and motivational, eh? But, if you were me...if you had lived through each of those...you'd know how heart-wrenching it was to actually give those things up. It's nice to see it all together and draw inspiration from it. And, don't get me wrong, I am all the happier for it...but it wasn't easy.
Letting go is the hardest thing...sometimes you just have to cry, rage, pout, sulk. However...it is true that time is a great healer.
And so I wait for time to pass...and for pain to let up and healing to come.
Your wonderful support and love has really helped me throughout this whole process of letting go...I really couldn't do this without you guys. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU. For being friends. And for loving a stranger. God bless you.