I'm past the halfway point of my 30-day program and I think I turned the corner. I no longer feel all the emotional ups and downs.
Most of all, I do NOT have cravings!! Really, truly, honestly!! I eat 3 meals a day. The food I eat satisfies me right up until the next meal. I don't think about food inbetween. I wouldn't have believed it myself a few weeks ago.
I'm not out of the woods yet. This is usually when I have in the past gotten tired of it and started to cheat a little here and there. So far, I haven't wanted to but I'll be on guard and hopefully be ready for it if those feelings sneak up on me.
I did have a big temptation to step on the scale last Sunday morning, but I WALKED AWAY FROM IT and did NOT get on. I had kept thinking to myself, "have I really lost weight? What if I haven't lost that much weight? Wouldn't it be nice to know if I lost a bunch of weight?" I just told my thoughts, "thanks for sharing" and I went about my day knowing that in the grand scheme of things it didn't matter how much weight I did or didn't lose. It wouldn't change anything. This is the path I'm on and I'm staying on it. Getting on the scale would have affected me negatively whether I was blown away or disappointed. My weight is what it is. All I need to know is that I'm eating the way I want to continue to eat. I'm still going by how I feel. And right now, I'm feeling really, really good!
Things can only get better because I have already gone 15 full days with NO sugar or chocolate or white flour products - zero, zippo, nodda. That's HUGE for me! When I think of how much of that stuff I was consuming before, there's no wonder that I was stuck. The more of it I ate, the more I wanted. I never felt satisfied. It truly was a viscious cycle for me. Now, my meals taste so good - it's like my tastebuds have re-awakened and are bursting for joy over wild salmon and oven roasted zucchini/summer squash.
This is good. This is really good!
The best thing is that I don't weigh or measure my food and I don't keep a food journal. I just eat my 3 meals within the framework of my program and I find myself not thinking about food at all until I'm actually hungry (which has been right around the time of my next meal). I can see where I've gone wrong so many times in the past. It's like I got a new pair of eyes with which to see everything much more clearly and it all makes sense.
I want to remember this feeling. I also want to remember those miserable feelings I had during the first 7 days because I do not ever want to have to re-live them!
With God's grace and my determination, I won't ever have to.