Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Hello, Motivation, it's been a while, I know. So, um, what happened? What did I do?
In the beginning, we were all kinds of hot and heavy. I woke up, you were there, you actually got me out of bed 5-6 mornings a week when you knew I'd rather snuggle with my husband...people passed around baked goods at work, and there you were, by my side.
Life was glorious together! We tracked my food, we planned meals, we drank so much water together, it was ridiculous. I felt strong and hopeful because I had you! I thought you were as into me as I was into you.
Then *poof* you were gone.
Why? WHY? WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHY?? Wasn't I committed enough? I'm on Sparkpeople, I even bought the cookbook! I bought 3 Jillian Michael's DVDs AT THE SAME TIME! What did I do to make you go away?
Please, please, come back. I can't do this alone! I need you! I have one or two good days and then I lay around like a slug hating myself because I know I should be moving but do not want to! When you were here, I exercised whether I felt like it or not.
Why did you go?
I'll do anything. I'll buy a new sportsbra. I will download Couch to 5K podcasts with great music. I'll make green smoothies! I'll take it one day at a time, ten minutes at a time! Anything!