I signed up for a 5k yesterday. I have kept putting it off because everyone keeps telling me they'd love to do it with me. That they'll sign up and we can all be in the same time. No one was doing it, so I signed up and told people what time I was doing it. They can either show up or not. I am not waiting on them anymore.
It's in two weeks and I'm so excited. It's a 5k with mud and stuff. It looks really fun. I am nervous about probably doing it on my own, I've never ran one on my own. But then I think I don't need anyone to hold my hand. It's running and mud, there isn't anything to be nervous about. I get nervous anytime I race so I need so I don't know why this time it seems a little worse.
It will probably take me long to do this then normal, cause it has all the mud and things we have to crawl over or under. I'm so excited. I know I said that already but it's still true. I'm still searching out my last two 5ks of the year. I think doing five this year is a huge deal for me. Considering I don't really like running, and considering year ago the idea of doing anything like this was to embarassing. I'll be the first to admit I'm not at my goal yet and I have weeks were I seem like I'm at a stale mate. I read this thing the other day that said if you're tired of quitting stop quitting. That hit me like a ton of bricks.
I went to yoga last week and the teacher said that our radiance is everywhere, some of us just have a harder time finding it. She said it's there no matter what, that it didn't matter if anyone else could see it, but that they wouldn't until we could see our own radiance. It left me feeling pretty good about things, wanting to find my own radiance and I realized I have been this whole last year I've been finding me. You can't see this but I almost fell out of my chair I'm laughing so hard. Why? Cause I didn't know I was lost, I was happy just sitting around watching life zoom by. Now that same couch is only used when I have injuries or am so tired I can't move. I'm the one zooming. Go figure, if anyone had told me that a year ago I would have laughed at them now I think darn right I am.