Tuesday, August 21, 2012
I had an extra 30 minutes this morning, so I went down to the gym and did some HIIT on the elliptical. It's totally not in my "program", but it's what I felt like doing.
My favorite HIIT for cardio machines is 90 sec easy/30 sec hard; for the elliptical, I usually choose a preset program like the big hill, put the resistance between 4 and 6, and keep my rpms between 40 and 70 for recovery and at 100+ for the intervals.
Thinking today is definitely choppy and disjointed...lack of sleep is catching up with me. I tried trick #954 and ate a carb-heavy meal and a froyo snack to try to help me sleep - ice cream-like things almost always knock me out cold at night - but even that didn't work. Averaging 4-5 hours a night :(
In fact, I was so tired that I thought about skipping my time with Jillian this morning. I skipped it yesterday because I was too sore, and while I was talking myself out of today's session I looked in the mirror and saw a new muscle in my back...sneakers were on within 30 seconds.
I bought new pants on my way home from work yesterday. They are only 95% perfect, but I regret nothing. When I look at them on the hanger, they seem impossibly small. When I look at them on me, I can't stop staring. I even fit into the next size down, but they were a little tighter than I'd like for the office.
I finally mailed a letter to my boyfriend last night. (I meant to mail it at 5, but I drove by the post office 4 times, didn't stop, came home after my failed attempt at getting to a yoga class after zumba, remembered the letter, and went back out to mail it.) I feel absolutely great about the letter that I wrote - 200 or so gentle words, plus a poem and a brief note from our stuffed animal "son". I can't believe I thought about giving up just because we needed a break...and while I can't guarantee that things will be better, I have so much hope and that is worth more than I give it credit for.
In sum: it's not easy, but I'm doing it anyway. It's not perfect, but I love it and I'm happy. There may be coffee in my near future.