Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Sometimes, we are stronger than we know. I haven't had the best day but I know in the morning, the sun will still shine and things will be better.
I wanted to walk so I can cry to myself and think clearly but the track I walk on was full of little peewee football players. Then I got upset that I couldn't cry. Then I thought about all the many triumphs I have overcome and yet I am still standing and smiling.
I thought about the times when i was so sore i could barely walk from having a hysterectomy at 29 and now at 38, I had to have my left ovary removed, (wishing they would have taken the right also but they wouldn't).
I had to heal in six weeks but it really is a lot longer than that. I thought to myself, if I can handle that pain and make it through it, then the pain I feel when i exercise is nothing. I always try to take the negative and end with a positive and today I realize that no pain can stop me from getting what I want. we have all had some major things, surgeries, pregnancy,divorce, and much more. I am sure this list can go on and on but the bottom line is we made it through the pain that was beyond our control so the pain we feel when we exercise,stretch,squat, and run is self imposed pain that should be no pain at all. If there is no pain, we are not working hard.
I never got to cry or walk, so I fold clothes and wash the dishes, set my alarm for an early morning walk/run when all the little kids are sleeping still ( as school start Monday) and enjoy the early morning dew and breeze. I know tomorrow will be a good day.