Monday, August 20, 2012
Shall I warn you now....this blog is coming from my kindle so please excuse any extra punctuation and errors. I usually do not blog from my kindle it is not the easiest thing to do but I have had this weighing on my mind a lot lately and figured since I am having a hard time coming to my decision on my own who better to ask for some looks outside the box than my friends and Spark community.
I am honestly conflicted on changing my weight goal. I have a few reasons for this and not sure why I am so undecided.
When I originally picked my goal of 160 pounds I based this on the last time I lost weight with weight watchers. My goal then was 140 pounds and I hit it. I was MISERABLE!!!! I had to eat minimum calories and exercise daily everyday to maintain this. I felt mad all the time and tired as well. I think I was underweight but had all the excess skin on me which was counting towards my weight. So when I picked this weight goal with Spark I tried to think about where I felt I looked good AND felt good. I came up with 160 pounds.
So here I am now weighing in last week at 170.9 pounds. I know I want to be in the 160s but I am wondering if 160 is just not right. Everyday I feel like I am done with this part of my journey. I feel amazing. I feel energetic. I feel HAPPY. I love how fit I am and continue to be. I feel like the other goals I am building towards are more important than my weight goals now. I am thinking maybe of changing my goal to 165 pounds. In the middle of my original goal and where I am now.
BUT I am feeling strange about changing it. I feel like I am cheating. Like I am saying I am done before I am crossing the finish line. Like I am celebrating before my completion. Then there is the other part that is bothering me. I am not at healthy BMI. I am kinda far from it. I believe I am sitting in the high 28s right now. In order for me to be in the healthy range I need to weigh about 155 pounds which wasn't too far away from my original goal but more from the goal I was thinking of changing to.
So I am so curious to see what my fellow sparklers think of this and maybe I will get some thoughts that I hadn't thought of since the same thoughts circle through my head all the time. I want to thank anyone reading and responding now but will warn you it will take me a couple days to respond possibly since I am on vacation this week but will try the best I can!!! Have a great day!!!