Monday, August 20, 2012
I am bone tired today. I say this with more than a little disappointment because I went to bed last night excited about a new week. I had a great week last week. I was focused on living my new healthy life style and motivated and excited to continue. Then today I woke up and nothing.... I could barely drag myself out of bed and get ready for work. I am tired and don't want to make the effort. In the past, feeling like this from the moment that I got up was more than enough to have me running for something to comfort me, for me that meant food.. ice cream, chips, chocolate. It also meant that I felt justified in resting my tired body in front of the TV. Guilt and self loathing usually follow my giving in to bad habits which then send me on a cycle of overeating. Today instead of "comforting" myself I thought about my goal to live a healthy life and why it is important to me. I realize that my goal does not become less important just because I am tired today. So I thought about what it would take to move forward. Am I really willing to put off my goals simply because I am tired and not willing to overcome a small obstacle? I found that the answer was no. I am determined to achieve my goal because it is important to me. So today I can be tired but what that means to me today is that I am going to approach my day in a different way. I am going to take small steps. Instead of walking a mile at lunch I walked a half mile. Not a giant step forward but a step forward none the less. I am building momentum and eventually all my small steps will add up to a healthy life. When I think about changing a life time of bad habits i get overwhelmed. I just don't have the kind of energy to make that hugh change. But I am realizing that no one is putting that burden on me but me. So now momentum is my aim. Everyday I will take a small step forward and eventually I will achieve my goal. I don't know who said it but I believe "the journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step."