So this moring was I think the worst shower hair loss since this all started... it was a massive amount, about double what I normally lose which is about 3 times was is notrmal...so basically today with what I lost I could create a small hamster... This pretty much freaked me out, I'm scared to take the towel off my head and see how that equates to what I see on my head... so until the absolute last minute that I must get ready I'm choosing to ignore it and move on with my morning till I have to get read for work in about an hour.

I just keep telling myself it's a process... it will all be fine in the long run and that with any luck I've fixed the problem by eating more and balanced and taking my vitamins but it's going to takes months of mornings like this till it all comes back or at the least stops falling out...

whew..it's a scary thing to witness...but I'm just going to move on. there is nothing more I can do about it than what I have... I just keep telling myself it will be okay...

I've increased intake of needed items, my clip in hair pieces will arrive this week (just so I feel like it's fuller like before not because I have a full on bald spot yet (thank goodness) and in October when insurance kicks in if it's not improved at all I'll get the first appointment I can on the first day I am covered and have a blood test done to see what the heck I'm missing... but I'm shooting for the fact that I've already taken the steps to correct it and I'll be missing nothing.

I am just thankful I feel so good, because it helps me to not worry that some very serious internally is wrong, because I feel certain there would be additonal symptoms.

On a good note (kinda)
I offically have a dresser with NO CLOTHES! 2 months ago or so I went through the closet and dressers and started the cleanout of clothes... I had still a few items in my dresser that fit, they were loose but fit... well last night I tried them on and I now have a totally empty dresser.... another 40ish items of clothes gone. I actually do not own one pair of jeans now...

It was pretty amazing to see the piles of donation clothes increasing to take up a whole wall... hard work does pay off, and I'm not keeping any of the clothes because I'm never going to back to that way of life... it was not living.