Monday, August 20, 2012
Well, I haven't blogged in awhile. Don't like that... blogging is one of the things that really helps me stay on track. Get those feelings OUT instead of stuffing them; but sometimes life just gets busy and there you are...
So let's see. The bad news is that I haven't worked out since last TUESDAY. OMG. That hasn't happened in almost 6 months! But Wednesday was spent doing things for my brother, then on Thursday I had to drink a bunch of that yukky stuff to prep for a colonoscopy on Friday. Did that BECAUSE colon cancer is rampant in our family and I will NOT do like my brother and wait until it's already killing me to go to the doctor - his biggest regret. Saturday was SICK - throat felt like I had been gargling with glass and Sunday was more of the same. Eating has been so-so. Didn't eat enough some days and ate some things I normally wouldn't, because I didn't have anything else in the house and didn't feel like going out. Planning is SO important.
Today is Monday. The scale did show some increase, but nothing major and nothing I wouldn't expect. I still feel REALLY TIRED, but today there WILL be exercise. Not sure what yet, but my body is craving it - which is pretty cool.
My heart is sad, though, because once again I thought - THOUGHT- I had found a possible love, but once again he turned out to be a liar. I had just started letting my guard down a little...
So today I feel pretty crappy overall. I will be OK, because I know what to do to BE ok. I will eat right, I will exercise, I am talking to my friends about my feelings (instead of stuffing them down with food), I got up and put on makeup and dressed cute, I am at work and will do my best, and I have DECIDED to continue to be happy.
But a few hugs and words of encouragement would be appreciated, dear friends.
I GOT THIS.