Monday, August 20, 2012
Last week I made a blog post about confronting my biggest phobia- snakes. I wrote about how I actually came face to face with a python type of snake. Granted it was in a pet store , in a very controlled situation and it was only a young medium sized snake, but it still was a snake . Afterwards I wondered why I felt the need to touch the snake. I am a city dweller and it is very doubtful I will ever confront a snake outside of a pet store, but, still I did it.
This morning I found out why I touched the snake. Today I had to start a new diabetic medication. This involved using an actual syringe. I have using injectable diabetic medicines for about 3 years. However I have always used the pens that are much more user friendly from a visual standpoint for me. The don't really look like a syringe even though technically they are probably classed as syringes. With this medication there is no doubt that I am using a syringe. And the needle part is a bit larger. Ever since Friday when I saw the doctor I have been worrying about this morning. I didn't sleep well last night knowing what I had to do this morning.
The whole time this morning while prepping to do this I kept muttering to myself-"I touched the snake, I touched the snake' over and over. Somehow That helped me to do what I had to do. Granted, it did hurt a bit more than the other meds. The good thing is I only have to do this once a week. Next Monday I will probably be muttering again about touching the snake. However now I now that I will be able to do it.
This is why I had to confront my phobia and touch the snake. It showed me that I can conquer the unconquerable. I am planning on moving forward and I am going to try and confront some of my other phobias to teach myself I can deal with my fears.