Late night thoughts...
Monday, August 20, 2012
I hate being disappointed when i expect a certain level of behavior and am sadly, often left with much less than that.
Anything from common courtesy, to general respect - now a days it seems to be missing from many of my friends, acquaintances, mere people passing in the super market...
Recently i've been dealing with people in my life that fall into all the categories above and it makes me sad that i have let that become acceptable behavior, it makes me mad that some of things that come across my plate are things i would never dream of doing to another person, and it makes me re-think my choice of the people i allow in my life.
I have some amazing, spectacular, caring and fabulous people in my life. People that would actually think i was talking about them! Because they would, it makes me love them more than anything and want to spend as much quality and quantity time with them as i can! They are the right kind of people and the people i want and need most in my life!
Sometimes it feels like second grade and getting picked last for kick ball, sometimes i feel used, sometimes i wonder why did I let these people even be a part of my life.
I had a sad experience today that just topped the cake and made me angry. I've been working on some thing with saying only positive things about my husband (but i've tried to expand it to everyone) for 30 days in a row, so i spent the better part of an hour trying to be positive, and happy, and putting a thoughtful spin on what happend, and hubby played along for a while and then we just decided - dang it - we are darn angry and that was thoughtless and rude and really, we are done making the effort to have you be in our lives...
So as i tried to fall asleep tonight my mind whirled and whizzed and i decided i needed to get my angst down on "paper".
I'm not going to let poor behavior of another ruin my 7.5 hours of beauty rest, rest in my big bed, with my loving husband, and fabulous little monkies! (aka the pups)
Ta ta, rest well and surround yourselves with those that are good for you!