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Sunday, August 19, 2012

This is Sunday Blog - take 4. I am feeling...agitated...frustrate
d...ugh. All kinds of things on my mind...budget, busy schedule, no change in weight, worry about returning to running, wanting to be better at work, feeling somewhat guilty about bad parenting choices today, etc etc etc. You know...life.

If there were ever a time where I would just LOVE to go for a long, 7-mile run all on my own, it is right now. I need some sort of outlet and I just don't have it right now. I can do the toughest deep water exercise workout...swim my heart out and I still don't get the same release that I get after a good run.

I've been doing all I can to fill this four weeks with good things...to keep my body in peak physical shape. But, it's the mental and emotional that's getting to me now. Gosh, I'm halfway through...more than halfway. I just need to hang in there a BIT longer. My follow-up appointment with the doc and hopefully the removal of the boot is in just 11 days. I can't afford to lose my focus. I'm already losing precious half marathon training days...I can't let myself go in this last week and a half. That would be so sad.

No...truth be told, I know I'll keep doing what is right. There are just times that I miss running SO much, I can't quite describe it. It's so much more than just exercise or a weight loss tool for me. It's my heart.

Oh August 30th....please hurry!

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KIPPER15 8/22/2012 9:49AM

    I have a magnet on my fridge that asks God to give me patience, but hurry up. It pretty well describes me. Hang in there, you are a star. emoticon

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LEB0401 8/21/2012 9:14AM

    What about going for a nice massage? It'll be incredibly beneficial for both your muscles and your mind! I buy all mine from Groupon, the "nearby" section has offeres that you can only use within a short time frame, and they're usually marked way down. It would be a nice way to squeeze in YOU time while you're sidelined a few more weeks.

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SHERYL_B 8/20/2012 9:40PM

    I know the feeling. Although I was only out of commission for less than two weeks I was going stir crazy.

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CINDHOLM 8/20/2012 8:42PM

    Hang in there and emoticon emoticon

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JUNEAU2010 8/20/2012 8:37PM

    So many of my sparkfriends are injured and can't exercise like they want to. Me? I HATE to exercise and can't seem to get moving at all....

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RUNNER12COM 8/20/2012 12:55PM

    What a great poster to go along with this blog. Yup, we'd run, anyway. Because that's what we do. We run.

And YOU will again. Believe it.

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LINDAKAY228 8/20/2012 11:42AM

    Hang in there. I know it's so hard but we're all here supporting and rooting for you. You can do this. It always seems darkest before the dawn and the dawn will be coming soon. I know you're not going to give up and you'll stay strong. But I also know what it's like to have those thoughts and feelings and it's normal. You're doing great to get through all this!

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RAMONAFLOWERZ 8/20/2012 11:38AM

    i know *EXACTLY* how you feel. I need the brain release from a good run - but I can't and I've been told it might not ever be in my future. I like to spin in place of running, but my knee has been so gosh darn sore lately that just getting out of bed has become a chore again...

hang in there friend. you'll make it!


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SJKENT1 8/20/2012 11:33AM

    One day at a time... one hour... one minute... a second...

Praying for you. Hang on my Spark Sister - this time will end, even if it feels like forever. There will be a wonderful end to all this!!



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JOYCECAIN 8/20/2012 11:03AM

    You can do this. I know you can. Keep working your program in other ways. Love emoticon

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ELLENBERRY 8/20/2012 10:13AM

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PATTISTAMPS 8/20/2012 9:49AM

    10 days now... you CAN do that! It is going to be a GREAT feeling to know you have gotten through this and stayed in as good fitness as is possible despite the limitations. You are a FIERCE WARRIOR WOMAN!!! Let's hear that roar!!

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ILIKETOZUMBA 8/20/2012 9:19AM

    Hang in there. I know what you mean about the release after running. I don't even enjoy running itself all that much - it's the feeling AFTER I run that I am addicted to. I can't imagine going for weeks without it! I'm impressed with how well you're handling it. I have to have surgery (outpatient, laparoscopic, but it'll still come with a recovery period of at least a couple weeks, before I can really exercise like I want to and go running again, and I'm all worried about losing my endurance and not keeping in shape and not getting that great runner's high and all that stuff. I will try to keep your excellent example in mind to keep me from worrying too much!

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NDKARIKARI 8/20/2012 8:41AM

    keep your head up, August 30 is in 10 days and thanks to the boot, you will be in a much better position to train, than you may have been if you had just pushed through your pain. You CAN and WILL do this!

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SIBLEYHONEYBEE 8/20/2012 8:02AM

    You know, whatever problem you have with one of your children it's usually not hard to make it right. Just wrap them up in a warm, fierce hug and apologize or try to explain things better. Then do something fun with them like bake a batch of cookies or curl up in front of a movie or play a board game or whatever it is that they would enjoy. Most of all they would probably just enjoy spending time with you and knowing that everything was okay again. Running is great and I know you use it as an outlet for your emotions and to clear your head, but just because you go on a good run and you now feel right with the world doesn't mean that your children have an outlet to suddenly feel okay with things as well. Use this time to embrace helping them feel better. It could be therapeutic for you too!

I do hope that this next 10 days goes by quickly for you and that you are able to start training in earnest once the boot comes off. We all need goals and we all need an outlet!

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HBLACK5 8/20/2012 7:50AM

    emoticon You are almost there!

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NILLAPEPSI 8/20/2012 7:46AM

    One day at a time, one hour at a time, one minute at a time or one foot in front of the other. Hang in there!! You're almost done. Do a countdown on your calendar to help you through. emoticon emoticon

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GUITARWOMAN 8/20/2012 7:45AM

    Read my blogs.

I was off the treadmill for 6-7 weeks with recovery from foot surgery, it was hard but I found substitutes and did it.

Word of cauthion, do not expect yourself to go back to your usual speed, distance, and intensity the first day the boot is off. Doesn't happen, won't work, you have to progress up to it.

Certain plans, like your running schedule, may indeed have to be modified. Life is like that.




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SLIMLEAF 8/20/2012 6:35AM

    You're doing emoticon

Just keep taking it one day at a time, one hour at a time, one choice at a time.

We CAN do this!

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123ELAINE456 8/20/2012 5:31AM

  Hang in there. This soon will past. You have a week and one half to go til the boot comes off. You can do it. We are here for you. Keep going and push through this. This is the way to go. God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Week.

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GARDENSFORLIFE 8/20/2012 5:07AM

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GOSPARK45 8/20/2012 2:13AM

    Hang in there. We're all pushing for you. You can do this.


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ANDASI 8/20/2012 1:49AM

    I can understand and apreciate that running is youre outlet and nothing else quite compares and is just not the same. You have done such a great job on compromising and finding ways to manage through this so for sure you know what they say dont give up before the miracle happens because thats what people often tend to do. You are so close you are almost there.

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SWEDE_SU 8/19/2012 11:57PM

    hang in there! emoticon

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GOING-STRONG 8/19/2012 11:09PM

    Just remember you are getting in lots of pool time and you will need that for the Triathlon!

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FRANCES-AGAPE 8/19/2012 11:03PM

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This too shall pass - HANG IN THERE !

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BLESSINGS !

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1GODGIRL 8/19/2012 10:41PM

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JUDSTERF 8/19/2012 10:19PM

    emoticon You've done great so far and you WILL finish those next 11 days with yhour book on. The worst is behind you. You might have to have some physical therapy before you can begin running but you will run again before too long. Remember, baby steps will get you to where you want to be. I believe in you!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

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YOGAGIRL289 8/19/2012 10:10PM

  I totally understand your love of running. It clears my mind, brings me peace, and makes me a happier, calmer person. I have been so impressed with your creativity and motivation in taking your doctor-ordered running break! Only two more weeks - keep up your great job! You can do it! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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PEGGYO 8/19/2012 9:56PM

    you can do it!!

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JENNNY135 8/19/2012 9:43PM

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I feel for ya, keep your chin up and concentrate on what you can do rather than what you can't do. The time will come for you to get back to running.

Hang in there. Be fierce!!



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KALANTHA 8/19/2012 9:38PM

    You're doing great, Leah. Just hang in a little while longer. I KNOW you can do it!

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RUNNERRACHEL 8/19/2012 9:34PM

    Running will be so sweet when you can come back to it. Hold on. The days will pass quickly. Hang in there.

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TMOORE073 8/19/2012 9:33PM

    Bless your heart. I so feel for you Leah. I truely know how you feel. When I was injured with my knee I couldn't run it was terrible! I have been a runner for 30 years its my life & who I truely am! Hang in there honey your almost there! I have been praying for ya along the way. Just think positive. It's almost over & you will be as good as new. Just keep swimming. That still gives you a great workout! That's why I started swimming because of my injury. I now just love it! I swam 5 days last week. Plus I ran the days I swam. There is a Triathalon in 3 weeks at the Outer Banks, NC. It is to soon for me just yet. But friends are trying to talk me in to it. Ha ha. It's a sprint Tri. I am going to keep traing very
hard who knows maybe I will be ready. Stay positive you're almost there Leah! Will still be praying for ya! Your Spark buddie!

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THESLIMMERME1 8/19/2012 9:29PM

    Hange in there emoticon Think of these periods as tests of your commitment to your self.

Have you done running in the pool - ie sitting on a noodle in the deep-end and running as hard as you can?

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TISTEN23 8/19/2012 9:15PM

    You can do it!!!

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WONDERWOMAN 8/19/2012 9:06PM

    Ah Leah, it is so hard when we lose something we love so much (even for a short time). But I HAVE to tell you this. I will bet we were having simultaneous thoughts; you trying to write the blog and me thinking how much I wish I were like you. I was doing some delayed stretching and rolling after today's run and berating myself for so easily succumbing to the "I can't run, so I give up" attitude. Not stealing your blog and details really don't matter, bottom line, I quit ST, most other activity, and had horrible eating habits over the past several weeks when I wasn't running because of my ankles. My point, don't be so hard on yourself, keep up what you are doing, this too shall pass, and know you ARE an inspiration to so many of us.
Thank you! emoticon

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DR8561 8/19/2012 8:59PM

    Feelings are fickle and fleeting. This too will pass. You're doing an amazing job and you WILL get through it. emoticon emoticon

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BTURPEN3721 8/19/2012 8:57PM

    Well, we all have those days, and if you feel like a run...go for a run!

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COCK-ROBIN 8/19/2012 8:57PM

    I wish you the best. And good running! emoticon

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