Sunday, August 19, 2012
It's been a long time since I have blogged about my binge eating disorder and really it's because I had chosen not to focus on it. I've just felt overall defeat in this area and wanted to focus elsewhere. While I have made progress in many areas of my life this year..This particular area I've struggled. The beast has been on my heels all year long and I've been letting it win without really fighting.
I'm starting to regain ground in fighting my depression. I've still a lil bit to go, but I've had some really good days in the past couple of weeks. Thank you everyone for all of your support and prayers. They really mean a lot to me!
I'm not 100% sure that this is the right time to work on my binge eating yet will there ever be a so called right time? I can list 1001 reasons why I wouldn't or couldn't do it right now.
So what am I doing?
Am I counting calories? NOPE
Am I making strict restrictions in my diet? NOPE!
Am I trying to start a streak of binge frree days? DOUBLE NOPE? (This may be okay for some, but this has really undermined my progress in the past)
So what am I doing? Well, a long long lomg time ago I read a book that was suggested to me called, "Overcoming Binge Eating" by Dr. Fariburn. I read it and learned all about binge eating and what have you...the only thing I didn't do was to try out his plan to overcome it. So that's what I will be doing. I've already started. The first step is to write down what I eat & drink, what time, the context of eating and the where. No tacking calories. This is just meant to give me an idea of where my pitfalls might be or give me an idea of a pattern. I have to admit it's not easy writing every little smiggen down. I want to put it off til later, but the book recommends keeping up with it each time you eat. I haven't done it today, so will get back to it tomorrow. The goal is to be as consistent as possible. I am also making it a goal to do my Physical Therapy Exercises 3-4 days a week and to get in more fruits and veggies.
I'm feeling hopeful about this. I brought it up with my therapist and she is very supportive. Also I have spoken to a dear spark friend about it and she too is supportive. I will be honest. This is going to be a difficult task trying to tame this beast and I will need all the support I can get. I plan on blogging at least once a week. I'm sorry I have not thanked each and everyone for posting on my last blog. Sometimes I just feel overwhelmed. But I certainly do appreciate all the support and love you send. Know that I love y'all too!
So here I go trying again!