Sunday, August 19, 2012
The person who removes a mountain begins by carrying away small stones.
In October I will have been a Sparkperson for 5 years. I have stopped and started over countless times. On 2 occasions I have lost over 30 pounds and many inches. Whenever my journey is going well, I feel very motivated and excited. Life feels wonderful and I feel like I could conquer the world. Each time I start over I feel that THIS will be the last time, and yet, so far - my last time has never materialized.
I have been reflecting a lot lately on what I would call my "faulty thinking". Perhaps it is never about starting over. Oh of course, the weight and the inches piled back onto my physical body. However all the knowledge that I have gained over the years has always stuck with me. All of the healthy habits are part of my life. The knowledge of what I have to do to get where I want to be is inside me. And I have a wonderful support system of SparkFriends that have stuck with me through thick and thin (pun totally intended).
So this morning I gathered my courage once again to face what lies ahead. I stepped on the scale and recorded my weight. I took out the tape measure and looked at the numbers. And while I did this I was remembering all the other times I have done this. But today I am acknowledging myself as a courageous person for facing what lies ahead. I am celebrating ME for having the courage to face all the reasons I carry around this extra weight. I am loving myself and my fellow Sparkies for being courageous everyday to pick up each small stone that will remove the mountains that stand between us and the road of healthy living that we want to travel. And I am honoring all of the good habits I have learned from my past attempts to move this mountain.