Sunday, August 19, 2012
This will be a bit of a 'stream of consciousness' post, so you'll forgive me.
I haven't blogged in the last few days, because I haven't had much positive to say. I did another Paleo week, and came out 1 lb. heavier -- partly because I've been drinking hot chocolate in the mornings, and probably due to eating too much beef, which always seems to interfere with weight loss. It's also been 'that time' for me, which usually doesn't have a major affect on my weight loss, but may have this time.
I guess I've been feeling a little sorry for myself over the last few days. Why do a couple of cups of hot chocolate in the morning affect my weight so drastically when you hear stories of other women who simply stop drinking sodas, and drop 'an incredible 15 lbs in one month!'? Why is it so difficult for me to lose weight? I workout everyday. I try to keep hydrated. I watch what I eat (for the most part). I've been at this for 4 months, and I'm down 20 lbs. I've been lingering at the 20 lb. mark for a month, and I have to admit, I get a little frustrated from time to time.
This too shall pass, I know.
I'm starting to think I may need to get my thyroid checked. I get cold easily, and my metabolism seems to be so much more sluggish than it used to be. I don't want thyroid problems. I want to lose weight at a steady pace, in direct relation to the amount of hard work I'm putting in each morning. Something feels unfair.
Okay, whining done.
I'm posting today to put my fears on notice. To you, fear, I say -- I will not relent. I will not back down. You can make this journey as difficult as humanly possible, and that will not deter me. I am absolutely determined to gain health, strength, confidence, and a great figure. I may come out of this battle bloodied, bruised, shaken, scarred and panting, but I will defeat this giant.
I will gather strength from all the previous battles I've fought and relinquished, and I'll fashion those remnants into new tools -- new weapons to bring me the victory I'm after.
You, fear, are a defeated foe. You probably already know that, but this is just a friendly reminder that you are not welcome inside of me any longer. I will be the person I was meant to be. I am a fighter. I am a winner. I am an overcomer, and I will overcome. Clear? Good.
So, onto another week of 'Paleo' living. I believe this is a good plan for me. It's getting me away from most processed foods, and helping me to avoid lots of snacking. It's teaching me to obey hunger signals, and avoid overeating. My husband likes it as well. So, we'll continue on with a little less beef, a little less hot chocolate and a little more self-love.
This giant will fall, as it was meant to. And oh, what a sound it will make.