Oh, so this is hitting the wall?
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Ok, today's totals
~ 7.311 miles, total time 51:06, average speed 8.5mph (those hills really kill me!), top speed 22.7mph, on the bike
~ 1 hour of laps in the pool
~ 30 minutes walking the pool cleaning it
I'm so friggin' tired. And I know I won't be able to walk tomorrow. But YAY ME!
I saw a thread the other day wondering if anyone has cried during a workout. I thought that to be odd as I used to work out quite a bit and never had any such issues. But today, on the last leg of my bike ride home after the pool I hit the wall. I stood on the side of the road with traffic whizzing by me as I sobbed. It took me a few minutes to collect myself to continue on the rest of the way, but I made it. And I still feel as if I could just start sobbing uncontrollably any minute. I could vomit. I have no desire to eat, and have only had just over 800 calories today and it's almost 9pm here. I did make sure to have protein throughout my exercising, and I just remembered some grapes I had that I need to track.
So is this hitting the wall? Because if so, I did it and kept right the eff on going! I can do this. I will do this. I must do this. My brother was mentioning the other day that he doesn't know where I am getting the energy and motivation to do this. My response? Because I want to live another 5 years.