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Saturday, August 18, 2012

I always thought changes only happened to you when you were young. I thought once you were grown, married, had kids and grandkids all the major changes would stop.
Boy was I ever wrong. Everytime in my life that I think things are right where they should be, WHAM, here come the changes.
I know change is good, but I could do with a little less all at once, if you know what I mean.
This has been a long hard week for me. My whole world has been turned upside down. I'm still not quite sure in which direction this change will take me, but I'm taking it one day at a time and am finally starting to be able to breathe without it feeling like my heart's going to jump out of my throat.
I still have lots to do before I can even sit back and take it in, but I know that the time will get here. When it does, I think I'll take me a short little trip and spend some time all by myself to get it in perspective.
I want to thank each and every one of you my very dear Spark friends for helping me through this time. I don't know what I would have done if not for you and some very dear friends right here. If I hadn't had y'all to come and just let it all out to, I'm not sure I could've gotten through this and remained sane. Your support has meant everything to me.

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  • ROBINT63
    Hi Jacque,
    I know about change ~ UGH!! One foot in front of the other is my motto for me anyway!! I know that change gives us an opportunity to reflect!! I'll keep my knees to the ground for you also. emoticon
    1796 days ago
    Jacque you are a very special friend Please take care of yourself. emoticon

    1802 days ago
    Jacque - you have become a dear and special friend through Spark People and although far apart, you are close in my heart. You are a very strong lady and although you are hurting, I know you will survive and become even stronger. If you want to take a trip, we have a very nice guest room you are welcome to stay in for a few days!
    1802 days ago
    Many hugs, my friend. That description of your heart jumping out of your throat is just how I feel many times. emoticon
    1803 days ago
    Jacque, you know that we are all here for you! I agree that change is hard, I was forced into a change of jobs in January of this year, and it really attacked my self esteem. I feel that I am still learning and have a lot to learn about the new job,though I have been there since February.

    My daughter's boyfriend had a huge change in his life this week, his father died suddenly (on the job) from a heart attack at 55. We don't know how much time we or the other significant others in our lives have.......when they go, it changes the way WE are.

    We had a huge change last year, in the middle of changing our lifestyle, even as we speak, that is still going on and is a stressor for us in many ways. I keep wishing we were already changed over, but you can't wish your life away, you must live in between the major changes and have a meaningful and productive life!

    I wish you the very best through this difficult period emoticon
    1804 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/18/2012 9:14:58 PM
  • _MOBII_
    Thats the way of it...when you are good and comfortable, life kicks you right in the butt!

    If there is anything I can do to help you out, just drop me a message.
    1804 days ago
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