Saturday, August 18, 2012
Trusting the process is very hard.
I am eating less calories but more than I need to loose.
I have upped the intensity of my walks and I believe we are going to join a gym this week to make more diversified exercising possible.
My mind knows what it wants to do but my body is just not ready for the next step.
I have been floating at my current weight for two years.
Hubby has lost down to a 32 waist and back up to 40 several times since 2007.
He won't listen and brings things into the house I should not have.
I feel like he comes in and says ... let's go out and eat ... I throw out my prepared lunch and we eat way more calories than we should. And i have to walk more to keep my weight stable.
It is the anniversary of my Mother's passing and I feel sad remembering the family drama of last year... But I have to keep believing that the process is in place..I have to just do each day with honesty and predictable behavior. I have pounds to my next goal. I know what to do. It is keeping remembering every moment of every day how much better I feel now.
I need to remember I will feel so much better. And maintenance will be so easy.