Stagnant: characterized by lack of development, advancement, or progressive movement.
That one word pretty much sums up how I feel right now and how I'm doing as well. I've been struggling and my inconsistent efforts leave me in this stagnant condition.
I'm TRYING to stay motivated. But, with me, I lose motivation very easily when I don't see results of hard work. It doesn't take long either. If I work hard ONE lil ole week and I don't see immediate results on the scale--yes, the results MUST show on the scale--I get discouraged and I become unmotivated to try as hard the following week. In actuality, the following week I may do NOTHING. It may be total sabotage.
That's where I am THIS WEEK. But, I shall not remain. I am NOT defeated. I'm always reevaluating...always thinking... always looking deeper into ME. And, I'm always starting over. I'm NEVER down and out. I'm just a work in progress... mentally, most of all. The physical will follow when the mental is in order.
So, my evaluation has led me to come up with a new plan for the next two weeks. I have only 6 weeks until the dress fitting for my sister's wedding. I want to be closer to my goal weight. She has everything planned so early out that we'll own the dresses and have them in our possession well before the date of the wedding. That means, we'll probably not be able to have them taken in or let out after we own them. That's my thinking anyway.
SOOOOOOO...... I have GOT TO BUCKLE DOWN and stop seesawing. It's time to get serious. Well, "getting" serious has never been the problem...it's the STAYING serious that trips me up. So, it's time to BE/STAY serious about the course I'm on and the goals I'm trying to reach.
Don't be surprised if you SEE me soon. I'm gonna try vlogging as an added motivation and accountability factor. A sparkfriend of mine vlogs EVERY single weekly weigh-in. I WANT to do that, but it absolutely terrifies me. LOL I don't know if I'm bold/confident enough to have you all find out (at the same time as me, what my weight is. Also, I normally weigh in naked. LOL Wouldn't that be lovely for all the Sparkers to see? NOT!!! LOL So, I'll have to see how I feel, but definitely I'll be vlogging before, after, or during my workouts.
Thanks for being there for me!!