Friday, August 17, 2012
So last night was one of the few nights where I'm home for an hour to relax after dinner. Usually I'm so busy with training I get home, shower, eat, and then my head hits the pillows. That's probably a good thing as it doesn't give me a chance for late night cravings to kick in.
Last night, instead of my body thanking me for giving it a slight break (only did my core lifts, not the assistance work) it wanted ice cream... jerk. I bought a couple single size servings of ice cream with the new mindest that "If I don't eat them now, I can enjoy them more later." This change of attitude has worked great and those little guys have survived a week and a half in my apartment! Ice cream/ treats never live that long in my home, so I'm really liking my new thought process and it may be the key to indulging responsibly in the years to come. I even have some individually wrapped dark chocalates @ 30 cals apiece that are only missing two from their box. It used to be that if I had one of anything, I had to finish the box. My monster is starting to be tamed.
But I wanted something cool and sweet and sugary after my dinner. I have eaten perfectly this week (seriously, I'm so proud of myself. Check my trackers back to Monday and forward to Sunday :) been on the lower end of calories to make up for a beach/cookout vacation last weekend) I checked spark and I could fit the cals/carbs/fat just fine and be in the middle of my range, so why shouldn't I?
Becuase ice cream is garbage calories and isn't good fuel for my body that I need. Not like I had the room and decided to have 1/4 cup brown rice and an egg or something. So I needed some way to beat this, without white knuckling it and going to bed in a bad mood. Then I remembered that some of us had talked about going to a mexican place for lunch today.
I told myself that if I could leave the ice cream in the freezer, not only could I enjoy it a different day, but I'd let myself order some real food today. Bam! Craving instantly went away and I went to bed maybe a little hungry, but happy.
I'm so sick of being that guy that always orders salds or a little piece of grilled chicken when we go out to eat. Now I can order and actual, responsible, meal from this place and be content. Thinking about getting fajitas and just eating the meat/veggies- no tortilla. My carbs are always what end up high anway. Looking forward to this, and proud of myself for saying no to even a semi-ok indulgence.