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Thursday, August 16, 2012




That's nearly FIVE THOUSAND CALORIES TODAY. This was not even a big binging day I just felt like tracking to really see how I was doing without paying close attention to the program. Well I'm doing crappy. That's well over twice what a grown man needs to eat in a day. I'm ashamed. and I keep thinking today was not even as bad as I have been doing lately. I'm furious. I feel so guilty and yet I know the steps I need to take to protect myself and I just WON'T TAKE THEM. I freaking hate tracking with a fiery passion. I feel like no counts are going to be exact and can be wildly skewed so what is the point of even wasting my time. well clearly I'm not as good at guestimating my range as I thought I was. I feel defeated and hopeless. I need to be held accountable for this, it's ridiculous. My mother told me today that I should be much heavier with as much food as I eat. She's right. I should, but somedays I try harder than others. I'm eventually going to be right back at huge if I can't get a freaking grip. I'm drowning.
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GARBLEDEEGOOK 9/14/2012 10:34AM

  I'm looking at previous blog entries and see a pattern. If you want to be accountable, try joining a challenge, for example. http://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark/
challenge.asp If things are overwhelming, focus only on one thing at a time and stick to it. When that's mastered move on to the next skill to acquire and be realistic about your goals.

Change takes work and only you can make yourself change. I believe tracking is an integral part of losing successfully, do it if that's all you do; keep yourself accountable, no one else can.

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RANCHGAL9 8/17/2012 12:30PM

    You can do it. We've all been there and all that tracking will ultimately be the tool that get's you over the hurdles. emoticon Stay strong

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BECCABOO127 8/17/2012 12:18AM

    It is very easy to eat 5,000 calories a day, so don't be too frustrated. You will get it together. It is good that you tracked even if you don't like to. I don't like to do it either, so I will try to track at least 3 times per week. There is also a short tracker that helps you eat your fruits and veggies. When I eat my fruits and veggies, I am less hungry than when I am carbing or over carbing.

Hang in there. You can and will do it!



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TXGRANDMA 8/17/2012 12:18AM

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DONNACFIT 8/17/2012 12:07AM

    Your blog really hit home with me as I know with out tracking..I've had several days of way over calories....we can do this..we can get the motivation to pick us up, brush off our crazy days and get right back on track...it's just like life..two steps forward and one step back...

You can do it!!

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TRENTDREAMER 8/16/2012 11:10PM

    Sorry to hear. Totally get the frustration.

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AIRAMEI 8/16/2012 10:55PM

    I loved your blog. I could not stop chuckling because I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. Right now I'm doing good, but before I would track a day where seriously, the whole day I thought I was being good, not even binging, skipping the dessert, cutting the portions, etc, and I was eating a whopping 4000+ calories!! And like you said, that wasn't even a BAAD day where I can EASILY eat half a pizza, bread sticks, a full double hamburger meal for lunch and don't forget sodas, breakfast and desserts.

I'm glad you shared your blog. We've all been there. The tracking drives me crazy when my meals are all random. But there are ways at making it less of a hassle. For example this week I am eating the same breakfast, lunch and dinner, so I just keep copying it. There are little tweeks here and there (like a different yogurt, fruit or veggie) so that I don't get too bored. But honestly, yes the tracking will not be 100%, but heck, I think we both know that keeping "track" in our head does not add up the same once we enter it.

Good luck, stay strong & positive. Your grip is getting stronger, you just don't know it.

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