Thursday, August 16, 2012
Sometimes it is so hard to stay positive and motivated. When I started this journey, I was so extremely positive and motivated and couldn't even remember a day in my life I was so confident that I could actually reach my goals. I started off great even though my scale has been my biggest enemy. I was focused on the journey to a new healthier lifestyle and there were so many other people starting this new exciting journey with me who were just as motivated. We kept blogging to share our experiences, victories and struggles. Nevertheless, over the past couple weeks I noticed that for many of us life made it hard to stick to this new routine and their struggles became bigger and they eventually gave up. I have been struggling myself and I still face all the obstacles that make it so hard to stay on track. My biggest problem is not eating too much and too unhealthy. My biggest problem is actually my lazy old self that still has so much power over me and always findst excuses for not working out. The only thing that didn't keep me from quitting is Sparkpeople. This site is so amazing and if I had given up I would have felt as if I had disappointed everyone that kept encouraging me in the last couple months. So I am still here and I still face all the struggles and problems of life and with this new healthier lifestyle, but I won't give up. I still have a long way to go and I hope that everyone who started this journey with me will stay focused or will getting back on track. What I need is consistency and motivation. I go running or doing another workout on one day and I feel great afterwards, but then the next day I can't get myself to even put on my workout clothes. It is depressing. I don't want to loose weight by just eating 'right'. I want to create a new ME that is attractive and toned and I want to create Me that is looking in a mirror and is not seeing an unhappy and fat girl who always wears dark clothes to make her appear slimmer.
Still far away from my goal weight and my dream body, I need to take steps towards that new Me. Maybe that will help to get motivated again to get back on track in every way. And maybe the New Me is already existing and I just had to find away to see it and give 'her' the power to give me strength and motivation to fight the old dark Me. As mentioned above, I usually wear dark clothes, so I won't look that fat, but as we all know 'black' is also the color of sorrow and I am just tired to be sad and unhappy. That is why I decided to get me some brighter clothes. I got me a pair of beige pants and a purple top the other day and guess what? Today, I wore those clothes and for the first time I could actually see the new ME in the mirror. I didn't even seem as big as I thought I would appear in those clothes. In fact, I even thought that I looked skinnier in those clothes than the dark/black clothes I usually wear. I never planned to go clothes shopping at that size, but now I know that this is actually what I needed. I had to get out of my 'old life', out of my comfort zone, because if I didn't and/or don't change anything I will not be able to succeed. Sometimes small changes can help you get out of the comfort zone and boost your energy and motivate that you are doing the right thing. Looking great in my new clothes was my way to step out and give me the motivation that I need to refocus on my goals and I hope that everyone who has been struggling will find their own way to get back on track and out of their comfort zone.