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A Step Towards A New Me

Thursday, August 16, 2012

Sometimes it is so hard to stay positive and motivated. When I started this journey, I was so extremely positive and motivated and couldn't even remember a day in my life I was so confident that I could actually reach my goals. I started off great even though my scale has been my biggest enemy. I was focused on the journey to a new healthier lifestyle and there were so many other people starting this new exciting journey with me who were just as motivated. We kept blogging to share our experiences, victories and struggles. Nevertheless, over the past couple weeks I noticed that for many of us life made it hard to stick to this new routine and their struggles became bigger and they eventually gave up. I have been struggling myself and I still face all the obstacles that make it so hard to stay on track. My biggest problem is not eating too much and too unhealthy. My biggest problem is actually my lazy old self that still has so much power over me and always findst excuses for not working out. The only thing that didn't keep me from quitting is Sparkpeople. This site is so amazing and if I had given up I would have felt as if I had disappointed everyone that kept encouraging me in the last couple months. So I am still here and I still face all the struggles and problems of life and with this new healthier lifestyle, but I won't give up. I still have a long way to go and I hope that everyone who started this journey with me will stay focused or will getting back on track. What I need is consistency and motivation. I go running or doing another workout on one day and I feel great afterwards, but then the next day I can't get myself to even put on my workout clothes. It is depressing. I don't want to loose weight by just eating 'right'. I want to create a new ME that is attractive and toned and I want to create Me that is looking in a mirror and is not seeing an unhappy and fat girl who always wears dark clothes to make her appear slimmer.
Still far away from my goal weight and my dream body, I need to take steps towards that new Me. Maybe that will help to get motivated again to get back on track in every way. And maybe the New Me is already existing and I just had to find away to see it and give 'her' the power to give me strength and motivation to fight the old dark Me. As mentioned above, I usually wear dark clothes, so I won't look that fat, but as we all know 'black' is also the color of sorrow and I am just tired to be sad and unhappy. That is why I decided to get me some brighter clothes. I got me a pair of beige pants and a purple top the other day and guess what? Today, I wore those clothes and for the first time I could actually see the new ME in the mirror. I didn't even seem as big as I thought I would appear in those clothes. In fact, I even thought that I looked skinnier in those clothes than the dark/black clothes I usually wear. I never planned to go clothes shopping at that size, but now I know that this is actually what I needed. I had to get out of my 'old life', out of my comfort zone, because if I didn't and/or don't change anything I will not be able to succeed. Sometimes small changes can help you get out of the comfort zone and boost your energy and motivate that you are doing the right thing. Looking great in my new clothes was my way to step out and give me the motivation that I need to refocus on my goals and I hope that everyone who has been struggling will find their own way to get back on track and out of their comfort zone.
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READE2MOVE2012 8/19/2012 8:03AM

  I found for me I cannot be successful with a new lifestyle plan until I accept myself where I am. I started wearing light colored clothes, in fact, without realizing it my closet became full of white clothes.

what I did was start to wear my shirt and blouses inside with a belt. I was only fooling myself that anything was hiding my actual size. I took the blinders off and saw myself as I really was and moved forward from there to a new future.

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SHANNISHELL 8/17/2012 8:04AM

    I am finding that I too have the same struggles with exercise. I also always wear black clothes. I may have to try your idea of getting lighter clothes. Keep up the good work and look at how far you have come not how far you have to go. I hope you have a great weekend emoticon .

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    Great Blog! Im glad u did something for urself to make u happy and to give u a little jumpstart back into the swing of things. you should be very proud of yourself that u havent thrown in the towel. like u said, we are here for a lifestyle change. people quit diets all the time. there will be bumps along the road but keep going, your definitely in the right place!
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