Today is turning out to be just one of those days. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm at work, and it's not busy with students, but instead of catching up on all the other work that is piling up around me, I'm just sitting around either twiddling my thumbs or surfing the internet. Naughty, naughty!

I've had problems with motivation my entire life. I know what I should be doing, but it's hard for me to actually get it done. It goes waaaaay beyond procrastination. It's almost as if I have some sort of mental block that I just can't get past. The problem is, I have no idea how to get past that block or even what caused it in the first place. This lack of motivation has had such a negative impact on my life, first in school, and now at work. It has also led to indecision in almost every other area of my life, from my personal relationships to my living situation to my writing. I'd like for my depression to take some of the blame, but I've been feeling really quite good lately, so that's out.

Now here is what is really strange: this lack of motivation has not made a difference in my weight loss journey. In fact, this is the only area in my life in which I feel I have some sort of control. Even when I don't feel like exercising, I force myself to do it. Even when everybody else around me is having delicious, fattening food, I can hold myself back from joining them. So the question is, how do I take all the motivation and self-discipline I am developing from my healthier habits, and apply them to other areas of my life? I really don't know. I want to keep making positive changes in my life, but I seem to be stuck where this is concerned. I'll keep trying, but in this instance telling myself over and over again to "just do it" isn't cutting it.