This week is as different as night and day as last week. As you know from last week's blog, I felt pretty low about everything. This week, I feel so much better! And there are some very good reasons why....
First, I couldn't have stayed this motivated without my friends on sparkpeople. When I wrote my feelings last week, I was completely overwhelmed by the positive responses I received from everyone, spanning from words of encouragement to helpful advice. I then took a step back, looked around at others on SP, and realized, "hey! I'm not the only person on earth who has struggled with weight loss, image issues, rocky past, family problems, insomnia!"
Secondly, I realized that sitting around, not exercising, eating whatever I want, etc. was only making me feel HORRIBLE!!! How did I ever do that ALL the time before? And smoked with it?! For YEARS!!! Last week, I was so depressed I just indulged in whatever I wanted. It was sickening. Literally. I felt gross, and bloated and tired all week long. And because of that, I didn't have the energy or drive to work out.
What I realized after my few days of being down in the dumps, was that I was missing the whole picture. I HAVE made huge strides despite some speedbumps in the road. I have been smoke free for SIX MONTHS! Five years ago, that would have seemed an impossibility. I also realized that one mistake isn't the end of the world of being healthy. If I eat one unhealthy meal, I can't trash the rest of the week and assume that I have messed up so bad, there is no return. I must make the effort to make healthier choices and not just throw in the towel if I decide to eat something one time that isn't green and picked from a garden.
Although I still deal each day with people pleasing (and this is an issue I am working through), I was very proud of myself for taking a stand in my weight loss journey earlier this week. I have a friend who LOVES to go get ice cream with me, and I LOVE ice cream too. I mean, seriously could probably eat the stuff every day for the rest of my life and not get tired of it. It is definitely my #1 food weakness. When she called me on Monday and asked if we wanted to go get some ice cream with her, I pulled up my big girl pants and confidently (but obviously nicely because she is a great friend) responded: "Is it alright if we go grab some frozen yogurt or shaved ice instead? We are really trying to stay on track this week with eating healthier, and I think this will be much better for us at this point." Much to my surprise, she wasn't mad or disappointed or upset or any of those things I feared! In fact, she replied with, "yeah! Let's do something different this time!" WOW!!! So, before we left, I looked online to see what would be my best option in advance, got the small size, and I was able to enjoy a frozen goodie with my friend without the extra 250 calories I would have mindlessly eaten before.
So, I write all of this to say, I'm not a loser, but I'm not perfect. I'm a work in progress, just like everyone else! It is not about being perfect all the time and always eating lettuce while you watch everyone else live life, but it's not about eating everything in sight just because you feel like you will never achieve your goals. I realized that I have been going through many trials over the past couple of months, and I have done so without lighting one cigarette--so why replace that habit with comfort foods? Everyone has problems, struggles, temptations, but we also have a free will. I have the free will to choose whether I will live life to the fullest or sit back on the couch and watch everyone else have a fun long lasting life.
With all that being said, I'm going to go get my work out started. My work out regimen for the remainder of this week is me remodeling my bedroom! I'm opting for a peaceful theme with a tropical flare. I'm going to paint the walls in calming colors and then covering the walls with my original paintings! Since I have never posted any pics of my paintings on SparkPeople, here is one that the bedroom theme is going to be centered around:
This is a painting I did for my hubby last Christmas to commemorate our fantastic journey to Jamaica for our honeymoon! Therefore, I have decided to turn my whole bedroom into a tropical oasis to remind me of the peaceful calm rest I got that wonderful week in Ocho Rios! I'm hoping that the calmer the appearance, the better my sleep!
Have a very blessed week! What are you thankful for?