Wednesday, August 15, 2012
i've been struggling with severe mouth pain all month long. despite multiple dental appointments and medications, the pain just kept getting worse. finally my dentist gave me an appointment to have 1, possibly 2 of my teeth undergo root canals, but in the meantime the pain has been so bad i feel paralyzed. i've been doing awesome at the gym all last week, but this week, when i WALK, the pain in my face shoots everywhere. i can't lay down, i can't eat...i feel like this pain has really intruded in on my life and turned all of my hard work upside down.
i really am trying to encourage myself. because i had been meaning to reset my spark page (i've been a member for over a year but am just starting to REALLY get into the program--thank God for all of the people that make sparkpeople an awesome site, including the users), i just went on and did it today. now i have a clean slate to start with, and i can count today as day 1 of the rest of my life. for the first time, im excited about that! it's needed excitement too, because for a while there i was REALLY depressed, thinking that this temporary clink in my plan means that i'm going to fail at this healthy lifestyle change. but now, i feel determined to just pick back up and continue on instead of throwing my hands up in the air and starting over. so tomorrow is another day, i can start over fresh and clean and know that i'm still doing well, even if i haven't been able to do much these last 3 days except nurse painful toothaches and migraines.
i broke down and went to the hospital today--only 24 hours from my surgical appointment, but the pain has gotten so bad that my heart began to palpitate. my pressure is 181/101. i explained that i do not suffer from high blood pressure, it's just that the pain is SO bad that i'm feeling really anxious, lightheaded and my heart is fluttery. the er doctor was very compassionate and understanding and gave me a prescription for painkillers that may allow me to feel relief while still being able to function. i took 2 about an hour ago and so far i'm a little drowsy, but still very much in control of myself (i can actually walk if i wanted to), and the pain has subsided substantially.
after all of the stress my body has been under, tonight i'm going to just relax with my husband. but tomorrow i hope to take 2 more pills and then get in at least 26 minutes (2 13 minute sessions) of the elliptical in! i think i can do it, because i'm feeling pretty able bodied with this medication. i can concentrate again on something other than pain!
never thought i'd say it--but i miss my elliptical machine. it's been 3 days of pain and stress, and no exercise, crappy eating (trying to eat things that dont cause pain leaves only high carb choices--soups, potatoes, etc.) and i just want to get back on track!
so please continue to pray for my healing and well being. looking forward to having my mouth heal so i can continue working towards my goals and continuing to be encouraged by my loved ones and all the great people here at sparkpeople!